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Title: Amore motus 3/5
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.

Note: Written for lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.


“Do you have something to drink at home?” Jun asked. He had the fridge open and looked back at Nino.

“No.” Nino shrugged. “I usually don’t drink at home. That’s why I don’t have anything here.”

“Okay, I’ll go to get us something.” Jun smiled. “I will be back soon.”

Before Nino could say something, Jun had already slipped out of the apartment to the next supermarket.

Nino sighed. He angled for his phone and searched through his contacts. He needed to know what was going on here. “Hey, Satoshi,” Nino said, when he heard that someone picked up the call.

“Oh, Kazu, what do you need?” Satoshi seemed to be outside, because Nino could hear loud traffic noises in the background.

“Do you know what’s going on with J?” Nino asked directly.

He could hear Satoshi breathing in deeply. “Kazu, I…” Satoshi started.

Nino rubbed his face. Okay, Satoshi was in the same situation Nino was. Just that Satoshi did everything for Sho.  Nino remembered when they sat together almost a year ago, drowning their lovesickness in two bottles of wine, one bottle of sake and half a bottle of vodka. This evening ended pretty badly. And none of them ever talked about the night the both of them spend together. If someone asked, that had never happened. It was just nice that Nino wasn’t the only one suffering. He had found someone to talk to.

“I understand, you can’t say anything. I understand that, but Jun’s going crazy. I fear that he does something pretty stupid. He starts drinking recently. And he gets more and more aggravated,” Nino must have sounded frustrated, because Satoshi finally answered.

“Maybe it was Jun’s fault that they broke up, and you know that Jun hates it to make mistakes.”

“Mistakes?” Nino asked.

“Sorry, I really can’t tell you more,” Satoshi excused.

Nino bit on his fingernail. What did that mean? What the hell did Jun do? “Thank you Satoshi, you helped me a lot already.”

“Take care of him, okay?” Satoshi sounded worried.

“I will,” Nino promised.

Nino waited till Jun came back to the apartment, a bag with some bottles of beer in it in his hands. “Let’s enjoy this evening.” Jun grinned.

Nino rolled his eyes. He couldn’t ask Jun directly. He knew that Jun would never say what had happened between them. Jun was stubborn and too proud to share his mistakes with someone else. Nino wanted to kick Jun’s butt sometimes, but in the end he wasn’t better. He loved this guy since forever, and he had never found the courage to say word. Maybe he and Jun weren’t that different.

It didn’t take Jun long to get drunken. While Nino had one beer, Jun already opened the sixth. “Don’t you think it’s enough, Jun?”

“Don’t tell me what I shall do or not do,” Jun shouted. His voice was already cracked. He had problems when he tried to stand up to grab himself another beer. “I am not a child anymore,” Jun snorted.

“I am worried about you,” Nino said.

“No need to…ya don…nee…to…every’thin…s…ookayy…” Nino sighed. Now Jun was at the edge. He wouldn’t stand long anymore. Nino had just experienced it once that Jun drank so much till he had to throw up for the whole night.

“How about taking a shower and going to bed, J?” Nino said.

Jun came closer to him, and sat next to Nino. “Don’t act like my mommy, okay?” Jun claimed.

“Okay.” Nino looked at his friend. Jun’s eyes were small and tired. Nino blinked. He didn’t like how Jun looked at him right now.

A silence appeared between them, and Nino didn’t like Jun’s stares. It made him nervous.

“I don’t like that,” Jun said.

“Okay, Jun. But please stop drinking now. It’s really enough.” Nino tried it again.

Jun came closer. Nino felt a cold shiver running down his spine. Nino could feel Jun’s breath in his neck. “I am not a child anymore, Kazu.” Jun left a small peck on Nino’s cheek, before he sat back on the other side of the couch. He took the beer and emptied in one go.

Now Nino got really annoyed. His cheek was still burning from the kiss Jun left there, but it didn’t feel good. It was just awkward and felt wrong. Nino hated drunken people since he had to bear with an alcohol addict in his family. He was able to keep calm for a long time, but now it was enough, he was at the end of his tether. Nino fisted his hand.

“That’s enough now. Come on, stand up.” Nino walked up to Jun and pulled on his arm. First he felt Jun fighting against his grip, but even though Nino was the smaller one, he wasn’t weak. He pulled on Jun with all his might, till Jun stood up. Nino dragged him along to the bathroom.

He didn’t even care about undressing Jun, he just shoved him under the shower and turned on the cold water.

Jun shrieked. “Are you nuts, Kazu.” He pulled on Nino’s arm, till he fell forward under the shower and both of them got soaking wet almost immediately.

“Are you refreshed now?” Nino grumbled. He took one of the towels and rubbed it over his head.

Jun sat on the border of the bathtub, his gaze lowered. He didn’t look up at Nino. Some water drops from his wet hair dropped down on the floor, creating a small puddle there. “Everything’s a mess,” Jun finally said.

He looked up and Nino almost froze. He had never seen Jun with such sad and dark eyes. “What happened, Jun?” Nino wanted to know.

Jun shook his head. He wanted to answer, but before he could say something, he jumped up and rushed to the toilet.

Nino sighed. He had known that it would end in throwing up all night long. He walked up to Jun and knelt next to him. He stroked over Jun’s back. “I knew that this would happen.”

Jun moaned. He looked to the side and glanced at Nino. “Just shut up, please.” There he was again, the old Jun. The short moment where Nino had the feeling to see the vulnerable and hurt Jun was over again. Jun hid behind the wall again and Nino wasn’t sure how to break through it.

“I go and get you some water,” Nino said after a while. Jun rested his head on the toilet seat and rubbed with his hands over his stomach. Nino hated him seeing like this. It reminded him of his uncle he had often seen like this, and it still hurt him to see people in such a state.

“Thank you.” Jun had his eyes closed. Nino had the feeling that he’d fall asleep there.

“I am back in a minute,” he said and left Jun behind there.

Nino exhaled when he went to the kitchen. It was hard for him to see his friend like this. It hurt him, and he wanted to know what was going on here. He had the slight feeling that this whole mess wasn’t Sho’s fault, even though it would have been easier if he was the reason for this – then Nino would have had someone to scold.

Nino took a towel and opened the freezer to take out some ice cubes. He wrapped the cubes into the towel and walked back to Jun.

Jun still sat there, his eyes closed. “Here.” Nino handed him the towel, but Jun didn’t even react. Nino sighed. He knelt next to Jun and placed the item in the other’s neck. Jun yelled out when the cold touched his skin. Nino had to smile about that.

“That’s freezing cold,” Jun grumbled.

“Yeah, that’s the reason why you shall use it. It’ll make you feel better,” Nino said.

“I doubt that,” Jun looked at him. “Maybe it’ll make my neck all stiff and cold, but I don’t think I’ll feel better afterwards.”

Nino rubbed the towel left and right. He could feel Jun shiver. “You already seem to be sober again. At least a little bit.” Nino smiled.

“I am not that drunk,” Jun pouted.

“No, of course not,” Nino teased him. “And now come, you need to go to bed.”

“Thanks, Kazu.” Jun stood up and let Nino help him to the bedroom. “Do you stay here tonight? You know my couch is yours. And I’d appreciate to not eat alone tomorrow morning.”

Nino smiled. “Will you tell me about the mess you have in your life?”

Jun shrugged. “Maybe.”

“Okay, then I’ll stay,” Nino said before he walked back to the living room.

~~~

Nino lied on the couch for two hours and he wasn’t able to sleep at least a bit. The last hours were exhausting. Nino pulled out his mobile and scrolled through the numbers. He dialled.

“Hey, Sho-chan. I take care of Jun right now, but he doesn’t want to talk about something,” Nino said when the other took the call.

“But you are with him now, and he didn’t do anything stupid again?” Sho asked.

“Yes, I took him home,” Nino said.

“What the hell do you mean with that?” Nino winced. He looked up at Jun, who was standing at the doorframe. 

Nino sat up immediately, the phone still on his ear. “I call you later,” he just said and hung up. “Jun,” he started.

“No, don’t say my name like that, why do you talk with Sho?” Jun’s eyes were dark, and Nino knew he should be afraid now, because Jun with dark eyes always meant getting scold.

Nino sighed. There was no chance to escape Jun here. And the best thing would probably be to tell the truth. “Sho asked me to take a look after you.”

“He did what?” Jun blurred out. He had his hands fisted. Nino knew his friend like this, and he knew that it was dangerous to say something now, because everything could have been wrong.

Nino stood up and got closer to Jun, who immediately stepped backwards. “Listen to me, Jun, please.” Nino’s heart beat fast. He knew that every step could be the wrong one now.

Jun just shook his head. His eyes were dark and full of anger. Nino had hardly ever seen his friend like this. Jun stepped closer and for a moment Nino feared that his friend would slap him, but Jun sat next to him, his head resting on the backrest. He sighed. Nino could see Jun’s eyes lighten up when he turned his head to face Nino.

“I wait,” Jun grumbled. “You said you want to explain things to me.”

Nino shifted on the couch. He felt incredibly uncomfortable. Jun always had this special aura around him, which could be really warm and tender but also totally scaring. “You know, Sho-chan came to me and asked me for help.”

Jun looked at him without saying something. He just pulled one eyebrow up and crossed his arms in front of his body. Nino sighed. “He is worried about you, and so am I.”

“He is worried?” Jun asked. “I am okay, I don’t need any help.”

Nino smiled. Jun had always been such a bad liar. Jun’s body language didn’t need any further words. He was tensed and stressed and it was far away from okay. “What the hell happened to you Jun?” Nino asked. Probably he wouldn’t get an answer, but he at least wanted to try it.

“Nothing.” Jun shrugged.

Nino rolled his eyes. God damn, Jun was so damn proud and stubborn, more than he could ever be. “Jun, don’t fool me. I am your friend, and I know you better than anyone else. I can see in your eyes that there is something terribly wrong. You never drank much alcohol and what’s about that strange club?”

Jun rubbed his hands on his pants. Nino had never seen him insecure like this before. He felt caught like a little child after doing something wrong. Jun breathed out. “You won’t let me go without telling you the truth, right?”

“Nope. Sorry.” Nino shook his head. And he would immediately recognize when Jun was lying, he always did.

Jun rubbed his face. “I did something really stupid, Kazu.” Jun looked at Nino. “I betrayed Sho-kun.”

Nino had thought about various reasons for Jun’s behaviour, but this wasn’t one of the options he had thought about. “You?”

Jun laughed out. “Unbelievable, right?”

“Why didn’t you try to clear things up between you and Sho?” Nino wanted to know. Everything got more and more confusing. This wasn’t the Jun Nino knew. He acted so different.

“I am really tired Kazu. I want to go to bed now,” Jun said while he stood up. No, he wouldn’t get away now.

“Hey, you promised to tell me the truth, Jun.” Nino pulled on Jun’s arm.

“I told you the truth, Kazu. That’s everything. I betrayed him and ended it because I couldn’t stand it anymore. That's it. Everything is okay now. I went out a little more often during the last weeks, but it’s nothing to worry about, really,” Jun explained.

Damn, Jun could be so closed. Nino wanted to shake him to get everything out of him. There was so much hidden behind a wall, and he would never talk about it. “Okay, good night,” Nino said. His stomach clenched terribly. He wanted to know more, but not now. Jun wouldn’t say something now.

Jun blinked at him. He seemed to be astonished about Nino’s reaction. “Good night, Kazu.” Jun smiled before he walked back to his room without looking back again.

Nino angled for his phone. It was already half past 3am and he felt terribly tired. Two missed calls and one message popped up on his display. He opened the message. It was from Sho.

Kazu, we need to talk tomorrow. I guess Jun had recognized that I talked with you. Let me explain some more things. Sho

“All the mess, gosh, I don’t want this,” Nino grumbled. He wanted to stay in his own little world where he could suffer because of his feelings, but he didn’t want to suffer because of that and because of Jun’s upside downs. Nino pulled the blanket over his head and closed his eyes. He wanted to sleep, but he ended in throwing himself from left to right and back.


A/N: Hey my dear friends. <3 So Jun opened up a bit? What do you think happened? Was this already the complete truth, or is there something hidden? And Nino and all the upside downs ^^





Date: 2017-01-13 09:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] arkalein.livejournal.com

I don't think that was all, what happend. Jun did more.
And Sho has more information? Interessting!


Thanks for sharing

Date: 2017-01-13 09:26 pm (UTC)
lilly0: (Matsumiya paint)
From: [personal profile] lilly0
I'm so sorry I couldn't comment on this right away. I managed to read it on Friday, but then I got sick unfortunately ><

THE FEELS! It's like a rollercoaster, and after each paragraph I'm thinking: What the heck is happing, what are you doing, Jun? Why? I can't wait to know what really happened!! It's heart-clenching to see Jun down like he is now, but I'm relieved that Nino is there to catch him and help him. <3

Did Jun betray Sho for real? I'm curious if he did. But I'm sure there is a lot more to it. Why would Sho ask Nino to keep an eye on Jun and even phone Nino once more?

Also, nice twist that Ohno is having feelings for Sho!

Thanks for this update! Now I want to read it more :D
Edited Date: 2017-01-15 02:01 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-01-13 10:05 pm (UTC)
learashi: (Glasses! Jun)
From: [personal profile] learashi
I can't believe that Jun would betray Sho. There has to be a lot more behind this.
Nino really is on a roller-coaster at the moment.

Date: 2017-01-13 10:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pur3f8thxd.livejournal.com
oh god...Jun what did he do?....Though I think I might know what I'm creating my own theories although they could all be debunked. But I'm really loving the story so far! I really hope it has a happy ending though!

Date: 2017-01-14 01:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dn-nura.livejournal.com

Obviously something is obviously hidden! Hahaha, guess need to wait for next chapter.. reading abt a dramatic drunk Jun can be a lil tiring.. Nino gambatte!

Date: 2017-01-28 02:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] matsumiyalover.livejournal.com
I'm sorry for not commenting for so long. I was saving this 'cause WIP is kind of my weakness :')

Ah poor Sho. I never thought Jun would be the type to hurt someone he loved. And I was wondering why Jun forbids Nino to talk to Sho though. It's not like they're suddenly enemies right? Especially after you revealed that Jun was actually in the wrong. Hmmm...

Off to read the rest of the chapters :D

Date: 2017-01-31 01:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yuuki-73.livejournal.com
tricky tricky tricky ... For Jun to cheat (IF HE DID) something must have triggered it.

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