Amore motus (Matsumiya) 2/5
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sky_no_yukiTitle: Amore motus 2/5
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.
Note: Written for
lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.
Nino breathed in deeply. He felt the cold air touching his face. It was getting colder outside, but Nino loved that. He had his hands in his pockets and stepped to the fence where he looked down on the street.
“You don’t want to jump, right?” Nino froze.
“Gosh, do you want to kill me, Sho? Don’t sneak around like this.” Nino had his hand on his chest. He turned to face the other and his heart started beating faster for real now. He didn’t know what Sho wanted from him, but it was for sure nothing too nice. It was Sho after all, and they hardly ever had some nice small talk, especially not when Nino stood on the roof top to take a break from everything.
Since Sho had been with Jun it was always Ohno on Sho’s side and Nino on Jun’s. Not that they didn’t like each other, but there had been two sides. When Jun and Sho had had trouble, Nino was at Jun’s side, and Ohno at Sho’s. And Aiba had been their Switzerland. He had been totally neutral. Aiba had never wanted to get involved in any relationship troubles, and it had been okay for everyone. So each member had had his place in their own little world. And now? Everything was a mess, and Nino knew that he could make it worse with his feelings.
“I am sorry,” Sho started. “I didn’t want to scare you.” He came up to Nino and looked down. “It’s pretty high.”
“We are on the 20th floor, so I guess it’s just normal that it’s high.” Nino smiled.
Sho looked up at him, and Nino totally didn’t like the expression Sho had. He was tired, probably he hadn’t slept for days, but there was something else, a kind of frustration mixed with resignation. “Probably you are right.”
Nino got a little nervous. He hoped that Sho wouldn’t bother him with his love problems now. In between this whole mess he didn’t need another issue. “I’ll come down soon. I just need some fresh air,” Nino said. Maybe Sho would just leave him, maybe he was just coincidentally here.
In the end Nino knew it was just a hope he had. “Why does Jun believe that you are in love with Masaki?”
Nino felt a cold shiver running down his spine. He didn’t like the situation and he wanted to run away, but there was no chance to flee. In the end Sho would find him, no matter where he’d run to.
“Don’t know, maybe because it’s the truth?” It was a bad idea to spread this rumour, but Nino had no other chance. He could already see Aiba’s grumpy face in front of him, yelling at him. He’d invite Aiba for at least three dinners when this would be over, and he really didn’t like to invite people.
Sho laughed. Nino blinked at him. He felt a little anger rising in him. Was Sho really laughing at him? “Is it that funny to be in love with someone?”
Sho looked at him. He still had a sad sparkle in his eyes. “No, definitely not.” He stepped forward till his body already touched the fence. “But it’s funny that you lie to everyone.”
Nino felt hot and cold at the same time. Sho knew the truth? How? Why? And what would he do now? “I have no idea what you are talking about.” Nino’s voice got a little higher, like always when he was nervous.
Sho pulled his eyebrows up. “No?” He clicked his tongue and turned his body to Nino. “Shall I help you?”
Nino shook his head. “No, thank you.”
“You have never been in love with Masaki, right?” Fine, Sho asked him rhetorically, but he really didn’t want to hear that.
“Who knows,” Nino finally said. Somehow he knew it was senseless to lie at the other. Sho had always had a soft spot for others lying at him. She had a great passion for fairness and he hated it to be lied to. But in the end it didn’t concern him what Nino felt for someone else – with the exception that Jun had been Sho’s ex-boyfriend.
“Kazu, you can trick Satoshi or Jun, but I think Jun is not stupid, he’ll recognize pretty fast what’s going on here. And I guess Masaki knows about it, right?” Sho started.
“So you think Satoshi is stupid?” Nino replied.
“Don’t wander from the subject,” Sho warned. He always got a dark voice when he was grumpy, and his eyes got from hazel to dark brown. Nino got always a little afraid when Sho got into this mode, and he had no idea why he felt like this.
“And what do you think what’s going on here?” Nino retorted.
Nino hated it to be forced onto the defensive. Even though Sho was right, he still didn’t like it. Sho seemed to be calm and totally aware that he was in the better position here. Nino just hoped that Sho had a good reason for asking him out. Fears started running through his mind. What if Sho would tell him that Jun was his’ and Nino should step back. But he never stepped forward? So why should he step back. There were so many thoughts in Nino’s mind that almost everything started spinning around.
Sho’s eyes turned a little lighter again and the dark mood got into a warm and caring one. Now Nino was totally irritated. What the hell was going on here?
“Listen Kazu, I am good with reading other people, and I know about your feelings for a long time,” Sho said.
Nino closed his eyes. That was definitely no good. “Sho,” he started but got immediately interrupted.
“No.” Sho raised his hand. “Don’t.” He looked at Nino with a small smile curling around his lips. “I am not here to offend you. And I am not here, because I am mad.”
It was the weirdest situation Nino had experienced in his life. He still had no idea what was going on here, and the strange feeling pulling in his belly didn’t disappear either. He still wanted to run away, to leave this all behind.
“So, what do you want from me than?” Nino asked.
Sho shrugged. “I am just curious.” He walked back till he reached the bench not far away. He sat down and looked at his feet for some moments. “You know that we broke up?”
Nino couldn’t believe that he was really having this talk with Sho – the one he was jealous of like he had never been before. The one who had the greatest luck to be together with Jun. The one Nino wanted to push away, and in his dark moments, he sometimes wished that Sho would disappear. And now, after they had broken up, he was happy. He felt bad, because he felt happy. It was such a weird situation. He liked Sho from the bottom of his heart, but Sho had had something Nino wanted to have. And now Jun was free, but he’d never look at Nino like he had looked at Sho.
Nino just nodded. “Of course you know. You are Jun’s second half.” Sho shook his head. “No offense, really. Satoshi is something like my second half in the end. The one I share my secrets with. That was always totally okay for me, and I never asked anything further or got jealous about it.”
Nino tried to imagine how he would have felt in Sho’s position. Had he always known that Nino had special feelings for Jun? That must have been a hard time to see Jun meeting with Nino while he had known that Nino was secretly in love with Jun. Jun had never been the type of betraying someone, but it had been a hard time for Sho. Slowly Nino felt guilty and bad. “I am so sorry.”
“Why?” Sho looked up at him. “You didn’t do anything wrong.” Sho stretched and leaned against the backrest of the bench. He looked up at the sky and took some time to start talking again. “I always knew that Jun needed a friend like you have always been for him. Though I could see you suffer because of the situation I could see that you’d never tried something that would ruin your friendship with Jun or our friendship. And it may sound weird, but I felt sorry for you. You looked so stressed and pained when you had been with Jun.”
That was definitely getting crazier with every second. “You weren’t the reason Jun had ended our relationship.”
“What was the reason?” Nino didn’t know if he was allowed to ask this. Nino didn’t even ask Jun about it.
Sho shrugged. “I guess our time was over. We got stuck. We had started fighting over silly things, and there was nothing calming and relaxing anymore. It was just a matter of time till it had to come to an end.”
It was that simple? No tragedy? No huge fight? No big story behind it? Nino almost couldn’t believe it. He got to know about hundreds of fights Jun and Sho had over the years, and Nino was sure, that if that relationship would end one day, they’d break up with a big fight and drama.
“Are you surprised?” Sho seemed that he could read Nino’s thoughts.
“A little bit,” Nino said. He smiled at Sho. “It’s so unspectacular.”
Now Sho laughed. “The most dramatic pairing breaks up totally unspectacular and simple. How boring…”
“What do you want me to do now?” Nino asked.
Sho pulled out a card of his pocket. “I want to ask you for help.”
“Me?” Nino pointed at himself. He wondered what would come now. He just hoped Sho didn’t need any tips for relationships.
Sho handed him the card. It was the one from a night club. “I followed Jun – he went there for at least five times. I am afraid Kazu, afraid that he does something stupid.”
Nino looked at that card. He knew that club, and he knew that it was mainly about drinking a lot of alcohol till you forget who you are and where you come from. Jun was an adult, he could go where he wanted to, but Nino agreed to Sho, that was no good. Jun had never been the one who was attracted to such things.
“What shall I do?” Nino looked at Sho.
“Talk with him, follow him, do anything. Please,” Sho plead. “He would never listen to me, Kazu. But he’ll listen to you.”
Nino wasn’t sure about that. Jun could be pretty stubborn, especially when it was about his private life. Nino could remember when he once tried Jun to stop smoking. Jun didn’t talk with him for days, and he never ever dared to ask Jun about stopping something. “I am not sure about it,” Nino said honestly. “It’s Jun after all.”
Sho sighed. There was something else bothering him. “I think he is broken, Kazu.”
“But why? He left you after all, and you said that there was no special reason for you to break up,” Nino said.
“Please, try to break through his walls,” Sho plead again. There wouldn’t be another answer than this Nino would get.
“Okay.” Nino nodded. At least he could give this a try.
~~~
Nino looked at the address on the card. He was right – and he couldn’t believe it. This was probably the worst area he had ever been. The people around were everything but trustworthy and Nino feared that he’d get beaten up or bullied by some of them standing there.
Nino thought about going into this club, but he was afraid what he’d get to see there, so he hid behind some big dustbins and waited. At some point he had to smile. That must have looked ridiculous. He looked at the club’s entry from time to time and hid again when someone was coming up. He just hoped that no one would see him there.
Right in the moment Nino wanted to give up, he heard a well-known voice at the entrance’s door. “I have no idea what you are talking about?” It was definitely Jun.
Nino peeked around the corner of the dustbins to see what was going on there. He could see Jun standing there, talking with someone. But this guy stood in the door frame, he wasn’t able to see him. “I told you Matsumoto-san, we don’t want to see you here when you are in this state. You know what happened last time, and we want to prevent that happens again.”
“I am just a normal guest,” Jun answered. Nino looked at his friend. He gulped. He had never seen Jun like this before. Of course there had been nights they went out together and they had drunken too much, but that was something different. Jun stumbled a little backwards. “I didn’t … do … any-thin-g.”
The man stepped out of the door to hold Jun by his arm. “Matsumoto-san, you need to go home. You are drunk, and last time you attacked one of the other guests. So please go home now.”
Nino had seen enough. He stood up and walked up to the man and Jun. “I am sorry, we are leaving now. I’ll take him with me.”
“Kazu? What the hell are you doing here?” Jun looked at him. Jun’s eyes were small and he probably wouldn’t remember about this whole thing tomorrow.
Nino sighed. “I am here to bring you home. And now let’s go.” Nino took Jun by his hand and pulled him out of the alley. He bowed in front of the man and apologized for Jun’s behaviour.
“What the hell is up with you?” Nino growled when they walked down the street. “Are you nuts to come here, get drunk and attack a guest?”
Jun shrugged. “He bullied me.”
Nino pulled one eyebrow up. He couldn’t imagine that there was one person able to bully Jun. Jun was a strong character and he never let himself being provoked by someone else. He’d go away to leave the other behind, but he’d never get into a fight. Here was something totally off, and Nino had no good feeling about it.
“Jun,” Nino started.
“No, don’t say my name in this tone. I don’t want any lecture from you,” Jun said. His voice was strong and stubborn. Nino knew this tone, and he didn’t like it. Nino shook his head. That would be hard work to break through Jun’s walls. What the hell had happened between him and Sho?
A/N: Hello everyone :) Here is the second chapter. So what do you think happened between Sho and Jun? And why is Jun's life so off right now? Any ideas?
Thanks for your lovely comments in the first chapter, I really hope you'll like the rest too.
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.
Note: Written for
lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.Nino breathed in deeply. He felt the cold air touching his face. It was getting colder outside, but Nino loved that. He had his hands in his pockets and stepped to the fence where he looked down on the street.
“You don’t want to jump, right?” Nino froze.
“Gosh, do you want to kill me, Sho? Don’t sneak around like this.” Nino had his hand on his chest. He turned to face the other and his heart started beating faster for real now. He didn’t know what Sho wanted from him, but it was for sure nothing too nice. It was Sho after all, and they hardly ever had some nice small talk, especially not when Nino stood on the roof top to take a break from everything.
Since Sho had been with Jun it was always Ohno on Sho’s side and Nino on Jun’s. Not that they didn’t like each other, but there had been two sides. When Jun and Sho had had trouble, Nino was at Jun’s side, and Ohno at Sho’s. And Aiba had been their Switzerland. He had been totally neutral. Aiba had never wanted to get involved in any relationship troubles, and it had been okay for everyone. So each member had had his place in their own little world. And now? Everything was a mess, and Nino knew that he could make it worse with his feelings.
“I am sorry,” Sho started. “I didn’t want to scare you.” He came up to Nino and looked down. “It’s pretty high.”
“We are on the 20th floor, so I guess it’s just normal that it’s high.” Nino smiled.
Sho looked up at him, and Nino totally didn’t like the expression Sho had. He was tired, probably he hadn’t slept for days, but there was something else, a kind of frustration mixed with resignation. “Probably you are right.”
Nino got a little nervous. He hoped that Sho wouldn’t bother him with his love problems now. In between this whole mess he didn’t need another issue. “I’ll come down soon. I just need some fresh air,” Nino said. Maybe Sho would just leave him, maybe he was just coincidentally here.
In the end Nino knew it was just a hope he had. “Why does Jun believe that you are in love with Masaki?”
Nino felt a cold shiver running down his spine. He didn’t like the situation and he wanted to run away, but there was no chance to flee. In the end Sho would find him, no matter where he’d run to.
“Don’t know, maybe because it’s the truth?” It was a bad idea to spread this rumour, but Nino had no other chance. He could already see Aiba’s grumpy face in front of him, yelling at him. He’d invite Aiba for at least three dinners when this would be over, and he really didn’t like to invite people.
Sho laughed. Nino blinked at him. He felt a little anger rising in him. Was Sho really laughing at him? “Is it that funny to be in love with someone?”
Sho looked at him. He still had a sad sparkle in his eyes. “No, definitely not.” He stepped forward till his body already touched the fence. “But it’s funny that you lie to everyone.”
Nino felt hot and cold at the same time. Sho knew the truth? How? Why? And what would he do now? “I have no idea what you are talking about.” Nino’s voice got a little higher, like always when he was nervous.
Sho pulled his eyebrows up. “No?” He clicked his tongue and turned his body to Nino. “Shall I help you?”
Nino shook his head. “No, thank you.”
“You have never been in love with Masaki, right?” Fine, Sho asked him rhetorically, but he really didn’t want to hear that.
“Who knows,” Nino finally said. Somehow he knew it was senseless to lie at the other. Sho had always had a soft spot for others lying at him. She had a great passion for fairness and he hated it to be lied to. But in the end it didn’t concern him what Nino felt for someone else – with the exception that Jun had been Sho’s ex-boyfriend.
“Kazu, you can trick Satoshi or Jun, but I think Jun is not stupid, he’ll recognize pretty fast what’s going on here. And I guess Masaki knows about it, right?” Sho started.
“So you think Satoshi is stupid?” Nino replied.
“Don’t wander from the subject,” Sho warned. He always got a dark voice when he was grumpy, and his eyes got from hazel to dark brown. Nino got always a little afraid when Sho got into this mode, and he had no idea why he felt like this.
“And what do you think what’s going on here?” Nino retorted.
Nino hated it to be forced onto the defensive. Even though Sho was right, he still didn’t like it. Sho seemed to be calm and totally aware that he was in the better position here. Nino just hoped that Sho had a good reason for asking him out. Fears started running through his mind. What if Sho would tell him that Jun was his’ and Nino should step back. But he never stepped forward? So why should he step back. There were so many thoughts in Nino’s mind that almost everything started spinning around.
Sho’s eyes turned a little lighter again and the dark mood got into a warm and caring one. Now Nino was totally irritated. What the hell was going on here?
“Listen Kazu, I am good with reading other people, and I know about your feelings for a long time,” Sho said.
Nino closed his eyes. That was definitely no good. “Sho,” he started but got immediately interrupted.
“No.” Sho raised his hand. “Don’t.” He looked at Nino with a small smile curling around his lips. “I am not here to offend you. And I am not here, because I am mad.”
It was the weirdest situation Nino had experienced in his life. He still had no idea what was going on here, and the strange feeling pulling in his belly didn’t disappear either. He still wanted to run away, to leave this all behind.
“So, what do you want from me than?” Nino asked.
Sho shrugged. “I am just curious.” He walked back till he reached the bench not far away. He sat down and looked at his feet for some moments. “You know that we broke up?”
Nino couldn’t believe that he was really having this talk with Sho – the one he was jealous of like he had never been before. The one who had the greatest luck to be together with Jun. The one Nino wanted to push away, and in his dark moments, he sometimes wished that Sho would disappear. And now, after they had broken up, he was happy. He felt bad, because he felt happy. It was such a weird situation. He liked Sho from the bottom of his heart, but Sho had had something Nino wanted to have. And now Jun was free, but he’d never look at Nino like he had looked at Sho.
Nino just nodded. “Of course you know. You are Jun’s second half.” Sho shook his head. “No offense, really. Satoshi is something like my second half in the end. The one I share my secrets with. That was always totally okay for me, and I never asked anything further or got jealous about it.”
Nino tried to imagine how he would have felt in Sho’s position. Had he always known that Nino had special feelings for Jun? That must have been a hard time to see Jun meeting with Nino while he had known that Nino was secretly in love with Jun. Jun had never been the type of betraying someone, but it had been a hard time for Sho. Slowly Nino felt guilty and bad. “I am so sorry.”
“Why?” Sho looked up at him. “You didn’t do anything wrong.” Sho stretched and leaned against the backrest of the bench. He looked up at the sky and took some time to start talking again. “I always knew that Jun needed a friend like you have always been for him. Though I could see you suffer because of the situation I could see that you’d never tried something that would ruin your friendship with Jun or our friendship. And it may sound weird, but I felt sorry for you. You looked so stressed and pained when you had been with Jun.”
That was definitely getting crazier with every second. “You weren’t the reason Jun had ended our relationship.”
“What was the reason?” Nino didn’t know if he was allowed to ask this. Nino didn’t even ask Jun about it.
Sho shrugged. “I guess our time was over. We got stuck. We had started fighting over silly things, and there was nothing calming and relaxing anymore. It was just a matter of time till it had to come to an end.”
It was that simple? No tragedy? No huge fight? No big story behind it? Nino almost couldn’t believe it. He got to know about hundreds of fights Jun and Sho had over the years, and Nino was sure, that if that relationship would end one day, they’d break up with a big fight and drama.
“Are you surprised?” Sho seemed that he could read Nino’s thoughts.
“A little bit,” Nino said. He smiled at Sho. “It’s so unspectacular.”
Now Sho laughed. “The most dramatic pairing breaks up totally unspectacular and simple. How boring…”
“What do you want me to do now?” Nino asked.
Sho pulled out a card of his pocket. “I want to ask you for help.”
“Me?” Nino pointed at himself. He wondered what would come now. He just hoped Sho didn’t need any tips for relationships.
Sho handed him the card. It was the one from a night club. “I followed Jun – he went there for at least five times. I am afraid Kazu, afraid that he does something stupid.”
Nino looked at that card. He knew that club, and he knew that it was mainly about drinking a lot of alcohol till you forget who you are and where you come from. Jun was an adult, he could go where he wanted to, but Nino agreed to Sho, that was no good. Jun had never been the one who was attracted to such things.
“What shall I do?” Nino looked at Sho.
“Talk with him, follow him, do anything. Please,” Sho plead. “He would never listen to me, Kazu. But he’ll listen to you.”
Nino wasn’t sure about that. Jun could be pretty stubborn, especially when it was about his private life. Nino could remember when he once tried Jun to stop smoking. Jun didn’t talk with him for days, and he never ever dared to ask Jun about stopping something. “I am not sure about it,” Nino said honestly. “It’s Jun after all.”
Sho sighed. There was something else bothering him. “I think he is broken, Kazu.”
“But why? He left you after all, and you said that there was no special reason for you to break up,” Nino said.
“Please, try to break through his walls,” Sho plead again. There wouldn’t be another answer than this Nino would get.
“Okay.” Nino nodded. At least he could give this a try.
~~~
Nino looked at the address on the card. He was right – and he couldn’t believe it. This was probably the worst area he had ever been. The people around were everything but trustworthy and Nino feared that he’d get beaten up or bullied by some of them standing there.
Nino thought about going into this club, but he was afraid what he’d get to see there, so he hid behind some big dustbins and waited. At some point he had to smile. That must have looked ridiculous. He looked at the club’s entry from time to time and hid again when someone was coming up. He just hoped that no one would see him there.
Right in the moment Nino wanted to give up, he heard a well-known voice at the entrance’s door. “I have no idea what you are talking about?” It was definitely Jun.
Nino peeked around the corner of the dustbins to see what was going on there. He could see Jun standing there, talking with someone. But this guy stood in the door frame, he wasn’t able to see him. “I told you Matsumoto-san, we don’t want to see you here when you are in this state. You know what happened last time, and we want to prevent that happens again.”
“I am just a normal guest,” Jun answered. Nino looked at his friend. He gulped. He had never seen Jun like this before. Of course there had been nights they went out together and they had drunken too much, but that was something different. Jun stumbled a little backwards. “I didn’t … do … any-thin-g.”
The man stepped out of the door to hold Jun by his arm. “Matsumoto-san, you need to go home. You are drunk, and last time you attacked one of the other guests. So please go home now.”
Nino had seen enough. He stood up and walked up to the man and Jun. “I am sorry, we are leaving now. I’ll take him with me.”
“Kazu? What the hell are you doing here?” Jun looked at him. Jun’s eyes were small and he probably wouldn’t remember about this whole thing tomorrow.
Nino sighed. “I am here to bring you home. And now let’s go.” Nino took Jun by his hand and pulled him out of the alley. He bowed in front of the man and apologized for Jun’s behaviour.
“What the hell is up with you?” Nino growled when they walked down the street. “Are you nuts to come here, get drunk and attack a guest?”
Jun shrugged. “He bullied me.”
Nino pulled one eyebrow up. He couldn’t imagine that there was one person able to bully Jun. Jun was a strong character and he never let himself being provoked by someone else. He’d go away to leave the other behind, but he’d never get into a fight. Here was something totally off, and Nino had no good feeling about it.
“Jun,” Nino started.
“No, don’t say my name in this tone. I don’t want any lecture from you,” Jun said. His voice was strong and stubborn. Nino knew this tone, and he didn’t like it. Nino shook his head. That would be hard work to break through Jun’s walls. What the hell had happened between him and Sho?
A/N: Hello everyone :) Here is the second chapter. So what do you think happened between Sho and Jun? And why is Jun's life so off right now? Any ideas?
Thanks for your lovely comments in the first chapter, I really hope you'll like the rest too.
