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Up where we belong 8/18 (JunBa, Sakumiya)
Title: Up where we belong
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
Masaki turned in his bed. He tried to sleep since hours, but no matter what he tried, he couldn’t. He had already tried to count sheep, but it didn’t work out. He turned from left to right and back. No matter what he tried it wasn’t comfortable and he couldn’t find any rest.
“Ma-chan?” Masaki heard Kazu calling his name.
“Kazu? You are still awake?” Masaki sat up. He could see Kazu curled up in his bed, but looking up at him.
“Mhm,” Kazu said. “I can’t sleep.” He sat up and pulled the blanket over his body. “Do you really want to know your past?”
Masaki bit on his lower lip. Did he want to know it? Yes – no – maybe. “I don’t know,” Masaki said.
Kazu pulled his legs closer to his body and rested his head on his knees. “I am nervous.”
Masaki nodded. “Me too.” Masaki grinned.
“Why are you smiling?” Kazu wanted to know. He looked at Masaki with his head tilted. Maybe he thought that Masaki was going insane here.
“I just thought that it would be great to find out some hidden secrets.”
“Even if they are not so nice?” Kazu asked. Masaki hadn’t seen his friends often like that. Kazu was always tough and a little brat, but sometimes, just sometimes he was able to show the small, scared boy he tended to be sometimes.
“Kazu,” Masaki said. He slipped out of his bed and tapped up to Kazu’s where he slipped under the blanket. “We are already got left here long ago, and we found a new family here. So what dark secret shall we explore there?”
Kazu looked at him. “But what if our parents were bad persons?”
Masaki pulled one arm around Kazu’s shoulder. “Would that change something?”
Kazu smiled at him. He brushed his sleeve over his cheek. “No, we still remain the same?” He half asked half said.
Masaki nodded. “Yeah, that’s it. We are the silly, stupid but mostly genius-like group of happy guys,” he giggled. He poked Kazu’s side playfully.
“Stop it, Ma-chan,” Kazu laughed out, trying to get Masaki’s finger to stop him from poking his sides. They laughed and rolled around on the bed till both landed on the ground.
“Hey, Kazu,” Masaki said, rolling on his back. He looked to the side to face Kazu. “You were so calm today after we saw Sho-chan with this girl?”
Masaki scanned Kazu properly. He nibbled on his lower lip nervously, but he didn’t say something. “Oh dear, don’t tell me that you are in love with someone?” Masaki said.
Kazu shook his head vehemently – a little too much. “Oh come on, Kazu-chan, talk with me.”
Kazu sighed. “I am not in love, Ma-chan. Really, I am okay. I just … nah …” Kazu rubbed his face. “It’s everything alright, okay?”
Masaki knew that there was something wrong with Kazu, but he knew his friend, and he knew that Kazu would never talk about it, if he didn’t want to talk.
~~~
Sho lay in his bed, staring at the ceiling. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply. For his own surprise he wasn’t nervous about the facts he’d get to know. He was more nervous about breaking into the office.
“Sho-kun?” Sho turned in his bed to look at Satoshi, whose bed was right beside his’. Satoshi smiled at him. “Who’s that girlfriend of yours?”
Sho sighed. No, he definitely didn’t want to talk about her right now – no, he never wanted to talk about her. It was something which belonged only to him, and he didn’t want to make this thing public, because he was embarrassed about it. “Nothing. Masami and I are just friends.”
“Oh come on,” Satoshi whined. He rolled to the side and leaned his head on his hand. “Don’t be so closed. You are always like this, Sho-kun, but open up at least a bit, and at least to me.”
Sho rolled his eyes. Satoshi was rarely really curious about something, but when he was, he was like a pain in the ass. He’d ask him hundreds of times a day. Some said that Satoshi was disinterested in others and their problems, but Satoshi wasn’t. He just didn’t care much about small things, but he had been there if one of his friends needed something, and he had a special feeling for people who were bothered by something. Sometimes Sho wondered how Satoshi did this, especially after he merely listened to others, or maybe it just seemed like this.
“She likes me,” Sho finally said. He could see Satoshi smiling at him. “Satoshi,” Sho grumbled. “It’s not like that.” Sho felt something in him clenching painfully.
“And you?” Satoshi asked. “Do you like her too?”
Sho sighed. He already feared that kind of question, and he never wanted to talk about it, because he didn’t know how he should explain everything. In the end he wasn’t even sure about his own feelings, or maybe he was sure, but he didn’t know if he should tell his friend. Maybe he cared too much about what others thought about him, and he didn’t want to get confronted with something he didn’t want to think about. Damn, why was everything so difficult for him?
“I …,” Sho said. He could feel his hands getting cold. Should he really talk about it? He nibbled on his lower lip. “No, I don’t like her. Not in the way she likes me.”
Satoshi nodded. “You like her as a friend?”
“Yes,” Sho said. He didn’t know if he should explain more, but Satoshi already continued before he was able to say something.
“Sho-kun, you never react to girls speaking with you. You don’t go out with them, and you avoid their tries to get closer to you. Why?” Satoshi asked.
Sho felt like throwing up. He had never talked about it. He had even avoided it to think about it. He breathed out. It was a big burden lying on his soul, and he feared that Satoshi would laugh at him, or worse, he’d turn around and stop being his friend.
“I …,” Sho said. “God, I don’t know if I am able to talk about it.”
Satoshi looked worried. “Is everything okay?”
“Yes, no, I don’t know,” Sho stuttered. Damn, he didn’t know when he had been that nervous for the last time. Probably he had never been that nervous before. Sho would never admit it openly, but his friends were the most precious thing he possessed. And he didn’t want to think what would happen if they would turn their back on him.
“Sho, come on, tell me already. I am your roommate, you can tell me everything,” Satoshi whined.
“Okay,” Sho closed his eyes. Maybe he should just say it out loud. “I think I don’t like girls.” There was a strange calmness in the room. Sho felt uncomfortable. Was Satoshi mad at him? Was he disgusted? Sho didn’t dare to look at his friend. He didn’t want to know what Satoshi thought.
“You know, this history teacher in school is really pretty hot,” Satoshi said after a while. Sho turned to face Satoshi. Did he mishear something? But the answer was so typically Satoshi.
“What?” Sho said.
He could see Satoshi staring at him. “I said that the history teacher is hot.”
“Yes, I heard that,” Sho said. “But I don’t understand it.”
Satoshi smiled at him. “I wanted to say that first of all I don’t care about it, and second, some men are really … hm … let’s call them hot.”
Sho couldn’t help but start laughing about it. He could feel some tears running down his cheeks. He felt relieved like never in his life before.
“Oh god, a crying Sho-chan? I think I need to make a picture. No one would ever believe me this,” Satoshi said theatrically.
Sho took the pillow and threw it against Satoshi. They both giggled around and soon both were breathless. “You know, now I am more curious about my family then nervous.” Sho smiled at Satoshi.
“I really want to know about my parents and family, even though that won’t change anything,” Satoshi said. “But you know, I am happy, no matter what.”
Sho nodded at him. “Yes, I think I am happy too.”
Satoshi stared at the ceiling. He wasn’t smiling anymore. He was the absent-minded, airheaded Satoshi again. “Do you still want to get away from here, Sho-kun?”
Sho blinked. He hadn’t thought about that for a longer time now. “I am happy. I don’t think I need something else right now.”
Satoshi had his eyes closed. Probably he was already snoozing away. “That’s really nice to hear,” he said before he started snoring slowly.
Hello everyone <3 Here is the next chapter - Chapter 8 from 18 :D I hope you'll like it. So Sho admitted that he isn't interested in girls? What do you think about Satoshi? :D Tell me your thoughts.
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
Masaki turned in his bed. He tried to sleep since hours, but no matter what he tried, he couldn’t. He had already tried to count sheep, but it didn’t work out. He turned from left to right and back. No matter what he tried it wasn’t comfortable and he couldn’t find any rest.
“Ma-chan?” Masaki heard Kazu calling his name.
“Kazu? You are still awake?” Masaki sat up. He could see Kazu curled up in his bed, but looking up at him.
“Mhm,” Kazu said. “I can’t sleep.” He sat up and pulled the blanket over his body. “Do you really want to know your past?”
Masaki bit on his lower lip. Did he want to know it? Yes – no – maybe. “I don’t know,” Masaki said.
Kazu pulled his legs closer to his body and rested his head on his knees. “I am nervous.”
Masaki nodded. “Me too.” Masaki grinned.
“Why are you smiling?” Kazu wanted to know. He looked at Masaki with his head tilted. Maybe he thought that Masaki was going insane here.
“I just thought that it would be great to find out some hidden secrets.”
“Even if they are not so nice?” Kazu asked. Masaki hadn’t seen his friends often like that. Kazu was always tough and a little brat, but sometimes, just sometimes he was able to show the small, scared boy he tended to be sometimes.
“Kazu,” Masaki said. He slipped out of his bed and tapped up to Kazu’s where he slipped under the blanket. “We are already got left here long ago, and we found a new family here. So what dark secret shall we explore there?”
Kazu looked at him. “But what if our parents were bad persons?”
Masaki pulled one arm around Kazu’s shoulder. “Would that change something?”
Kazu smiled at him. He brushed his sleeve over his cheek. “No, we still remain the same?” He half asked half said.
Masaki nodded. “Yeah, that’s it. We are the silly, stupid but mostly genius-like group of happy guys,” he giggled. He poked Kazu’s side playfully.
“Stop it, Ma-chan,” Kazu laughed out, trying to get Masaki’s finger to stop him from poking his sides. They laughed and rolled around on the bed till both landed on the ground.
“Hey, Kazu,” Masaki said, rolling on his back. He looked to the side to face Kazu. “You were so calm today after we saw Sho-chan with this girl?”
Masaki scanned Kazu properly. He nibbled on his lower lip nervously, but he didn’t say something. “Oh dear, don’t tell me that you are in love with someone?” Masaki said.
Kazu shook his head vehemently – a little too much. “Oh come on, Kazu-chan, talk with me.”
Kazu sighed. “I am not in love, Ma-chan. Really, I am okay. I just … nah …” Kazu rubbed his face. “It’s everything alright, okay?”
Masaki knew that there was something wrong with Kazu, but he knew his friend, and he knew that Kazu would never talk about it, if he didn’t want to talk.
~~~
Sho lay in his bed, staring at the ceiling. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply. For his own surprise he wasn’t nervous about the facts he’d get to know. He was more nervous about breaking into the office.
“Sho-kun?” Sho turned in his bed to look at Satoshi, whose bed was right beside his’. Satoshi smiled at him. “Who’s that girlfriend of yours?”
Sho sighed. No, he definitely didn’t want to talk about her right now – no, he never wanted to talk about her. It was something which belonged only to him, and he didn’t want to make this thing public, because he was embarrassed about it. “Nothing. Masami and I are just friends.”
“Oh come on,” Satoshi whined. He rolled to the side and leaned his head on his hand. “Don’t be so closed. You are always like this, Sho-kun, but open up at least a bit, and at least to me.”
Sho rolled his eyes. Satoshi was rarely really curious about something, but when he was, he was like a pain in the ass. He’d ask him hundreds of times a day. Some said that Satoshi was disinterested in others and their problems, but Satoshi wasn’t. He just didn’t care much about small things, but he had been there if one of his friends needed something, and he had a special feeling for people who were bothered by something. Sometimes Sho wondered how Satoshi did this, especially after he merely listened to others, or maybe it just seemed like this.
“She likes me,” Sho finally said. He could see Satoshi smiling at him. “Satoshi,” Sho grumbled. “It’s not like that.” Sho felt something in him clenching painfully.
“And you?” Satoshi asked. “Do you like her too?”
Sho sighed. He already feared that kind of question, and he never wanted to talk about it, because he didn’t know how he should explain everything. In the end he wasn’t even sure about his own feelings, or maybe he was sure, but he didn’t know if he should tell his friend. Maybe he cared too much about what others thought about him, and he didn’t want to get confronted with something he didn’t want to think about. Damn, why was everything so difficult for him?
“I …,” Sho said. He could feel his hands getting cold. Should he really talk about it? He nibbled on his lower lip. “No, I don’t like her. Not in the way she likes me.”
Satoshi nodded. “You like her as a friend?”
“Yes,” Sho said. He didn’t know if he should explain more, but Satoshi already continued before he was able to say something.
“Sho-kun, you never react to girls speaking with you. You don’t go out with them, and you avoid their tries to get closer to you. Why?” Satoshi asked.
Sho felt like throwing up. He had never talked about it. He had even avoided it to think about it. He breathed out. It was a big burden lying on his soul, and he feared that Satoshi would laugh at him, or worse, he’d turn around and stop being his friend.
“I …,” Sho said. “God, I don’t know if I am able to talk about it.”
Satoshi looked worried. “Is everything okay?”
“Yes, no, I don’t know,” Sho stuttered. Damn, he didn’t know when he had been that nervous for the last time. Probably he had never been that nervous before. Sho would never admit it openly, but his friends were the most precious thing he possessed. And he didn’t want to think what would happen if they would turn their back on him.
“Sho, come on, tell me already. I am your roommate, you can tell me everything,” Satoshi whined.
“Okay,” Sho closed his eyes. Maybe he should just say it out loud. “I think I don’t like girls.” There was a strange calmness in the room. Sho felt uncomfortable. Was Satoshi mad at him? Was he disgusted? Sho didn’t dare to look at his friend. He didn’t want to know what Satoshi thought.
“You know, this history teacher in school is really pretty hot,” Satoshi said after a while. Sho turned to face Satoshi. Did he mishear something? But the answer was so typically Satoshi.
“What?” Sho said.
He could see Satoshi staring at him. “I said that the history teacher is hot.”
“Yes, I heard that,” Sho said. “But I don’t understand it.”
Satoshi smiled at him. “I wanted to say that first of all I don’t care about it, and second, some men are really … hm … let’s call them hot.”
Sho couldn’t help but start laughing about it. He could feel some tears running down his cheeks. He felt relieved like never in his life before.
“Oh god, a crying Sho-chan? I think I need to make a picture. No one would ever believe me this,” Satoshi said theatrically.
Sho took the pillow and threw it against Satoshi. They both giggled around and soon both were breathless. “You know, now I am more curious about my family then nervous.” Sho smiled at Satoshi.
“I really want to know about my parents and family, even though that won’t change anything,” Satoshi said. “But you know, I am happy, no matter what.”
Sho nodded at him. “Yes, I think I am happy too.”
Satoshi stared at the ceiling. He wasn’t smiling anymore. He was the absent-minded, airheaded Satoshi again. “Do you still want to get away from here, Sho-kun?”
Sho blinked. He hadn’t thought about that for a longer time now. “I am happy. I don’t think I need something else right now.”
Satoshi had his eyes closed. Probably he was already snoozing away. “That’s really nice to hear,” he said before he started snoring slowly.
Hello everyone <3 Here is the next chapter - Chapter 8 from 18 :D I hope you'll like it. So Sho admitted that he isn't interested in girls? What do you think about Satoshi? :D Tell me your thoughts.