Up where we belong 10/18 (JunBa, Sakumiya)

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Title: Up where we belong
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.


Masaki sat on his bed in his room. He looked at Kazu on the other side, who sat there, staring at him. “Is this really true?” Kazu said after a while.

“It seems so,” Masaki answered. “But it’s so unbelievable,” he added. “We really do not look same.” Masaki took a closer look at his friend.

“No, we are totally different. It’s really hard to believe that we shall be twins,” Kazu shifted on the bed and climbed out of it to get to Masaki’s bed. He sat next to him and put his hand around Masaki’s shoulder. “But we have always been brothers, so it doesn’t matter I think.”

Masaki nodded. “That’s true. But you know what the strangest thing among this all is?” He asked.

Kazu nodded. “Yes, that Satoshi is the oldest brother and we are related.”

Masaki chuckled. “Yes. Satoshi is so totally different.”

Kazu nodded. They both started laughing out loud. Masaki felt the tension in him fading. He had found real brothers now, even though he had already had them before they had searched through the folders. “It’s just sad that our parents didn’t want to keep us. But you know, I thought I’d be enraged or mad or even sad about it, but actually I feel nothing.”

“Me neither. I am just happy right now,” Kazu said.

Masaki looked up at the ceiling. He really didn’t feel anything about his parents, but it was interesting where they had come from. “Our parents live in a small village, have you ever imagined that?”

Kazu shook his head. “I always believed that my parents had died and that’s why I came here. But I also believed that I was a single child, and not a twin. And I didn’t think that I have an older brother, who’s also here.”

Masaki agreed. He had had the same thoughts. They had talked so often about it, and they had talked about so many different variations were they had come from. “Do you remember the day we imagined that our parents are astronauts?”

Kazu giggled. “Yes, that was great.” Kazu pulled on his legs to get it closer to his body. “It’s somehow boring that they are normal people living on the countryside.”

“Do you think that the reason for them to leave us here is really their poorness?” Masaki asked. He couldn’t believe how someone left their children because of money.

“I don’t know, but it’s … I don’t know …” Kazu nibbled on his lower lip. He had always been pretty honest with his words.

“It’s?”

Kazu looked at Masaki. “It sucks.” He sighed. “I mean … they left Satoshi here, because they didn’t have any money and some years later they brought us here?”

“Okay, that is sad.” Masaki felt the happiness about his new found real brothers fading and the sadness about his family rising.

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Sho walked into the room followed by Satoshi, who let himself fall down on the bed. “I have two brothers.” Satoshi looked at Sho in disbelieve. “I can’t believe it.”

Sho sat at the desk. He wished he could change place with Satoshi, but he didn’t want to sound jealous now, and he wanted to show interest in the other’s story. “That’s amazing,” Sho said with a smile. He had to fight against his real feelings, but he was able to supress it.

“I am sorry.” Sho looked up when he heard Satoshi’s words.

He shook his head. “There’s nothing you need to be sorry about.” Sho felt something in him clenching. He had been so nervous when he had opened his folder, but when he had read the words on his page, he felt everything in him tensing. There had been a picture from him, with his full name underneath it. The rest of the page was filled with one word: Parents and former life unknown. Sho didn’t know what he had expected, but this wasn’t what he wanted to read. But what did he want to read? Sho didn’t know it. He felt torn between everything.

“Sho-kun,” Satoshi said. “Nothing changes, okay?” He smiled at Sho. “You are still one of us.”

Sho felt the tension mixing with a warm feeling. Satoshi was right, nothing had changed. But nevertheless he felt sad. He wanted to know his past, and he didn’t get to know it. “Who were the people I got raised by? Who were the ones who brought me here? I remember my life before I got here, but I thought that these were my parents after all?”

“I don’t know,” Satoshi said. “Maybe your aunt and her husband?” He mused.

Sho shook his head. “I have no idea.”

“I really hoped that you’ll find some answers in there, Sho.” Satoshi was still looking at him. Damn, now he felt the tears coming up in him. He wanted to believe that this thing didn’t matter to him, but in the end he was more affected. Sho lay back on the bed. He didn’t want Satoshi to see him like this.

“It doesn’t matter I guess. Maybe it’s not my fate that I get to know my family and the circumstances why I got here,” Sho mused. He knew his voice sounded thin and sad, but he couldn’t change that.

“What do you think about Jun?” Ohno asked. He knew that Satoshi just wanted to change the topic, and maybe it was the best to stop thinking about things which wouldn’t be able to be solved.

“I don’t know. I am not sure if we should talk with him about it. Probably it’s the best to tell him that we couldn’t find any information about him?” Sho suggested.

“Maybe you are right,” Satoshi nodded. “But he won’t stop asking questions.”

Sho closed his eyes. Yes, he knew that Jun had an insatiable thirst of knowledge. And he would ask and ask and ask till he’d get an answer. “I can’t tell him that his parents are dead. That’s something I don’t want to convey.”

Satoshi kept silent for a moment. He just played with the pen in his hands, tapping it on the table absent-minded. “But we have to tell him?”

Sho sighed. He sat up, his hands rested behind him on the bed. “I don’t know. He is so young after all. Wouldn’t it be too much for him?”

“Yes, you are probably right. Maybe we can tell him that we don’t know it?” Sho tilted his head. Yes, that was a good idea.

“You are right, Satoshi, we tell him that his parents are unknown, like …” Sho didn’t finish the sentence. He looked down on his feet. “Like in my case.” He ended the sentence.

Sho turned when he heard a knock on their door. He looked at Satoshi, who just shrugged. Sho stood up and walked up to the door. He could hear someone whispering out there.

He opened the door and smiled. “Come in.”

Masaki and Kazu walked into the room. Masaki had Jun on his arms. He was already dozing off on Masaki’s shoulder. “He wanted to come along, no matter what,” Masaki said.

They slipped into the room and sat down on Satoshi’s bed. Jun moved on Masaki’s arm and yawned loudly. “Yeah, party,” he said with his eyes half closed. The others laughed at that. Jun wouldn’t make any kind of party. He would slip into a peaceful dream soon again.

They looked at each other for one moment before Jun broke the silence again. “Did you find everything you wanted to know?”

Sho saw Masaki’s eyes resting on him. Sho shrugged wordless. He understood what Masaki wanted from him, but he couldn’t tell if it was a good idea to tell Jun the truth. “Yes, Jun, we found everything we searched for,” Masaki finally said, and Sho was glad that it wasn’t him who needed to talk right now.

Jun looked at Masaki. “Did you find something about my parents?”

Sho didn’t dare to look directly at Jun. He scanned his other friends, who didn’t seem to know what they should say either. “Yes,” Masaki said. “Jun, it’s … your parents …”

Jun looked at him. “They are in heaven, right?” Sho stunned, and it looked like the others felt same.

Masaki stroked Jun’s head. He smiled at him. “Yes, Jun. They watch after you from up there.” Masaki pointed at the sky. “They are always with you.”

Sho didn’t know what it was, but Masaki had the ability to make others feel good, especially children.

“Okay, they are happy, right?” Jun asked.

“Yes,” Masaki said.

Jun nodded. “Then I am happy too. And I have you.” He smiled at them.

Sho grinned when he saw that Masaki was close to cry. But he couldn’t deny that he was touched either.

“Can you imagine that Masaki and I are twins?” Kazu asked while looking in the mirror and back to Masaki. “We totally don’t look same.”

Jun chuckled. “You are way smaller and thinner than Masaki.”

“I am not that much smaller,” Nino said angrily.

Sho grinned. That was Kazu’s weak point. He really didn’t like it to be the smaller one. “But hey, maybe you get as tall as Satoshi is. Oh wait, you almost have his height,” Sho laughed.

Satoshi glanced at him. “You have to talk,” Satoshi grumbled.

Sho crossed his arms. “You know, now that I know that you three are brothers, I think my time here will become much harder. I hope the two of you don’t get same like Satoshi is, otherwise it’s really getting hard with you all.”
“Sometimes I can’t stand you, Sho-kun,” Satoshi grumbled. He pricked out his tongue. The others laughed about it, especially Jun had fun with them arguing about silly things.

Sho felt the tension and sadness in him fading. He hoped that this feeling would at least never stop between them.

A/N: Hello everyone <3 So here is the new chapter of this story. So now we know how they are related. What do you think about them? :D