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sky_no_yukiTitle: Up where we belong
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
Sho walked home after work. It was a longer way, but he had the feeling that he needed some fresh air. It’s him. And yes, he is pretty. Nino’s words were still resounding in Sho’s ears. He couldn’t believe it. He had never thought that Nino would date a guy, not that he cared about it, because he himself knew that he was into men, but he was astonished that it was Nino, who felt same. And it bothered Sho much more that he wasn’t able to tell the others about his own feelings.
The others still didn’t know that Sho was into men. He had never talked with someone about it, except Satoshi, who totally didn’t care about Sho’s private things. He listened to everything, and he was always there when Sho needed something, but he never interfered into his problems. Sho knew that Nino went out with some girls back in school, or were these just lies and he never had dates with them?
Sho knew that Satoshi didn’t care about woman or man, he fell in love with a person, no matter who it was, and Sho could remember how Masaki came to his room two years ago, crying like madly because he had realized that he fell in love with a school mate. Sho felt uneasy because he seemed to be the only one having a problem with talking about it.
Sho opened the door to his apartment and threw the shoes to the side. He took his red slippers and walked into the kitchen to get something to drink. He smiled when he looked at the picture on the wall. Jun drew it when he had been 5 years old. They were all on this picture and everyone was drawn in their very own colour Masaki had chosen for them for their first picture when they were still small.
“Hey,” Sho turned when Satoshi came into the room.
“Oh, you are already at home?” Sho asked. Satoshi looked tired. “Did you sleep?”
“Mhm,” Satoshi hummed. He got to the fridge to take out a coke and the leftovers from the ramen Masaki had made two days ago. “The party yesterday lasted far too long.”
Sho chuckled. That was so Satoshi like. He himself had never been much into partying, but Satoshi sometimes stayed away till early in the morning. “And you drank too much?”
“Please, don’t talk about it,” Satoshi whined. He sat at the small table right next to the fridge. Their apartment was small, but it was enough for the both of them. After living together in one room for almost 20 years, they desired only one thing: to have a room on their own. Everything else was just luxury for them. With their jobs they weren’t able to afford more than this small apartment, but it was perfect for Sho.
“Vodka? Tequila? Wine? Beer?” Sho said with a bright grin. Sometimes he just enjoyed it to tease his friend.
“A bit from everything?” Satoshi had his head rested on his hands. He took a sip from his coke and closed his eyes again.
“Maybe I call Masaki to make you some chicken soup?” Sho tilted his head.
“I think I am not able to eat for the next two days.” Satoshi stroked his belly. He must have felt really bad on his morning.
“But we only talk about alcohol right?” Sho knitted his eyebrows. He had the bad feeling that sometimes it didn’t stay with just a few drinks too much for Satoshi. He knew Satoshi’s friends after all, and they were kind of strange. Sho had seen them with different things than alcohol and one of them had boasted about some cocaine blackouts. Sho was worried about his friend, but he didn’t dare to say something, because he knew how stubborn Satoshi could be. Sho had never said a thing, because the time he had seen these guys with the drugs, they were only them, and no one else involved. Sho had been relieved that Masaki and Kazu had already gone home, and Jun wasn’t even on this party. He didn’t want to think what would had happened when they’d been there.
“What are you talking about?” Satoshi looked up at Sho. Sho knew these sparkling eyes. Satoshi got hardly any time really annoyed, but this time he was angry.
“I just wanted to say that I saw your ‘friends’.” Sho raised his hands and formed quotation marks with his fingers. “They didn’t drink too much, they also took some other things, and I don’t want you to be involved in such things.”
“First of all, Sho-san,” Satoshi said angrily. “They are not only my ‘friends’.” He mimicked Sho’s movements. “They are goodhearted and I really like them.” He leaned forward. “And second, are you nuts?”
“I just want to be sure that you don’t do something stupid.” Sho shrugged. He didn’t want to insult Satoshi, but he was really worried about him. He even didn’t like the fact that Satoshi was drinking a lot recently, he was also afraid that there could happen worse to him. He just hoped that the drinking and clubbing nights were just a matter of time till it would disappear.
“Do you really think I am that stupid?” Satoshi huffed.
Sho sighed. Gosh, he wished that he wouldn’t have said something. “I am sorry, I am just worried.”
Satoshi’s eyes lightened up. He smiled a little bit at Sho. “Please don’t do that. I am really well aware of what I am doing. So please trust me.”
Sho nodded, but he wasn’t sure if he could really trust the other.
~~~
Masaki could hear the door open. He wanted to jump out of his bed and ask his brother out immediately, but he knew Kazu. When he’d make a wrong step, Kazu would punish him with staying silent, and Masaki had one big weak point: he was curious to death. When there was something he wanted to know, he’d do a lot of things to get what he wanted.
Masaki had his eyes closed. He waited till Kazu had taken his pyjama, till he had come back from the bathroom, and till he had lay down in his bed. Masaki shifted and turned to face Kazu’s bed. “And??”
Kazu shrieked. “Gosh, you are awake?” It was dark, but Masaki was sure that Kazu glanced at him.
“How can I sleep when you are on a date?” Masaki giggled. He slipped out of his bed, and pushed a grumbling Kazu to the side so that he was able to lie next to him. “And now tell me about it.”
Kazu snorted. “Can’t you stay in your bed? It’s pretty small in one bed together.” He robbed to the side.
“No way, I want to hear every single word you tell me,” Masaki grinned. He was probably more nervous about Kazu’s date then he’d be about his own, which he didn’t have, but that wasn’t important now.
“And you think you don’t hear me when you lie one meter away?” Kazu grumbled. Masaki poked his side, earning a nerved giggle from the other.
“Come one, tell me now,” Masaki whined.
“Okay, okay,” Kazu gave in. “I tell you about it. But only because you are such a nerve wrecking twin, really.”
Masaki put his hands behind his head and closed his eyes. “I am ready for your story.”
“It was nice, we went to a restaurant together and chatted a lot, story finished.” Masaki opened his eyes and turned to Kazu.
“No, no,” he said. “You don’t get away with such a short and not detailed description. I want to know who he is? Will you see each other again? Did you kiss?”
“Masaki,” Kazu growled. He rolled his eyes. “Is there a chance that you give up on asking me?”
“Nope.”
“Not even when I promise you to invite you out for dinner?” Kazu tried it again.
Masaki rolled on his stomach and placed his head between his hands. “No chance, little brother. I want to know everything.”
“You are only 1 minute older than I am, so no need to play the old and wise guy here.” Kazu poked Masaki’s nose.
Masaki laughed out. “Okay, okay.”
Kazu rolled on his back and rubbed his face. “Please don’t get mad, okay Masaki?”
Masaki blinked. Why should he get mad with his brother? “What have you done?”
Kazu didn’t say something at first. He just nibbled on his lip nervously staring at the ceiling. Masaki could feel the nervousness in him rising. “Kazu,” he said again.
“Okay,” Kazu faced him. “I met this guy at my work, and we get along well. We went on a few dates already, but I didn’t dare to tell someone about it.”
“Oh, that’s no problem, Kazu. It’s great that you’ve found someone you like. Why shall I be mad about it?” Masaki was confused, but he had the feeling that this wasn’t the only thing Kazu wanted to tell him.
“See, we like each other, but we aren’t in love. It’s more like meeting up for some stress relieve and go separate ways afterwards,” Kazu explained.
“What are you talking about?” Masaki asked.
“And you tell me that you are the older one?” Kazu laughed out. “It means that we meet to have sex with each other, and go separate ways afterwards. We are no couple, and there are no bigger feelings involved. We just share a nice time together.”
“But you both like what you do, right?” Masaki asked. It wasn’t what Masaki had thought of, but if his brother was happy with his life, than he was either.
“Yes, I guess so.” Kazu shrugged.
“Then I don’t see any problem.” Masaki nodded.
“Who are you and where’s my brother?” Kazu joked.
“Why?”
“Because you are the one dreaming about a real relationship with big feelings and happy bubble pink feelings involved.” Kazu made a break. “I thought you’d be mad with me.”
Masaki got Kazu’s thoughts. He couldn’t imagine a relationship like Kazu lived in right now, but that didn’t matter at all. “Kazu, as long as you both are happy with what you do, I am also happy. I just don’t want to see you suffering, okay?”
Masaki looked at his brother. Even though he had told him that he was happy how his love life was going on right now, he couldn’t get rid of the feeling that it wasn’t all the truth. “It’s really okay. I like him as friend. Maybe I’ll bring him along to my birthday party?” Kazu asked.
“Sure, I am curious,” Masaki said. And it wasn’t even a lie, he was really curious to get to know this stranger.
“One plea, Ma-chan,” Kazu said already half asleep. His voice was already getting calmer and his eyes were half closed. “Don’t tell Sho-kun or Satoshi about it. I guess they, or better one of them, don’t react so cool like you did.”
Masaki chuckled. No definitely not. But it would be funny to see Sho’s face when Kazu would tell him about his friends with benefits relationship. “No, I keep calm,” Masaki said while he climbed from Kazu’s bed back to his.
He wanted to sleep, but Masaki didn’t find any rest. He thought of his brother’s words. Yes, he was the relationship-type. He couldn’t think of an open relationship or just a sex relationship, but in the end he didn’t have to think about any kind of relationship, because there was no one interested in him.
“Shit,” Masaki cursed almost silently when he felt some tears in his eyes. This was definitely his weak point.
A/N: Hello everyone <3 Sooooo, Kazu is in a relationship, but only a friends with benefits thing? What's the reason for this? And what's going on with Satoshi? ^^ And Masaki seems pretty depressed, even though he covers it?
Tell me your thoughts.
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
Sho walked home after work. It was a longer way, but he had the feeling that he needed some fresh air. It’s him. And yes, he is pretty. Nino’s words were still resounding in Sho’s ears. He couldn’t believe it. He had never thought that Nino would date a guy, not that he cared about it, because he himself knew that he was into men, but he was astonished that it was Nino, who felt same. And it bothered Sho much more that he wasn’t able to tell the others about his own feelings.
The others still didn’t know that Sho was into men. He had never talked with someone about it, except Satoshi, who totally didn’t care about Sho’s private things. He listened to everything, and he was always there when Sho needed something, but he never interfered into his problems. Sho knew that Nino went out with some girls back in school, or were these just lies and he never had dates with them?
Sho knew that Satoshi didn’t care about woman or man, he fell in love with a person, no matter who it was, and Sho could remember how Masaki came to his room two years ago, crying like madly because he had realized that he fell in love with a school mate. Sho felt uneasy because he seemed to be the only one having a problem with talking about it.
Sho opened the door to his apartment and threw the shoes to the side. He took his red slippers and walked into the kitchen to get something to drink. He smiled when he looked at the picture on the wall. Jun drew it when he had been 5 years old. They were all on this picture and everyone was drawn in their very own colour Masaki had chosen for them for their first picture when they were still small.
“Hey,” Sho turned when Satoshi came into the room.
“Oh, you are already at home?” Sho asked. Satoshi looked tired. “Did you sleep?”
“Mhm,” Satoshi hummed. He got to the fridge to take out a coke and the leftovers from the ramen Masaki had made two days ago. “The party yesterday lasted far too long.”
Sho chuckled. That was so Satoshi like. He himself had never been much into partying, but Satoshi sometimes stayed away till early in the morning. “And you drank too much?”
“Please, don’t talk about it,” Satoshi whined. He sat at the small table right next to the fridge. Their apartment was small, but it was enough for the both of them. After living together in one room for almost 20 years, they desired only one thing: to have a room on their own. Everything else was just luxury for them. With their jobs they weren’t able to afford more than this small apartment, but it was perfect for Sho.
“Vodka? Tequila? Wine? Beer?” Sho said with a bright grin. Sometimes he just enjoyed it to tease his friend.
“A bit from everything?” Satoshi had his head rested on his hands. He took a sip from his coke and closed his eyes again.
“Maybe I call Masaki to make you some chicken soup?” Sho tilted his head.
“I think I am not able to eat for the next two days.” Satoshi stroked his belly. He must have felt really bad on his morning.
“But we only talk about alcohol right?” Sho knitted his eyebrows. He had the bad feeling that sometimes it didn’t stay with just a few drinks too much for Satoshi. He knew Satoshi’s friends after all, and they were kind of strange. Sho had seen them with different things than alcohol and one of them had boasted about some cocaine blackouts. Sho was worried about his friend, but he didn’t dare to say something, because he knew how stubborn Satoshi could be. Sho had never said a thing, because the time he had seen these guys with the drugs, they were only them, and no one else involved. Sho had been relieved that Masaki and Kazu had already gone home, and Jun wasn’t even on this party. He didn’t want to think what would had happened when they’d been there.
“What are you talking about?” Satoshi looked up at Sho. Sho knew these sparkling eyes. Satoshi got hardly any time really annoyed, but this time he was angry.
“I just wanted to say that I saw your ‘friends’.” Sho raised his hands and formed quotation marks with his fingers. “They didn’t drink too much, they also took some other things, and I don’t want you to be involved in such things.”
“First of all, Sho-san,” Satoshi said angrily. “They are not only my ‘friends’.” He mimicked Sho’s movements. “They are goodhearted and I really like them.” He leaned forward. “And second, are you nuts?”
“I just want to be sure that you don’t do something stupid.” Sho shrugged. He didn’t want to insult Satoshi, but he was really worried about him. He even didn’t like the fact that Satoshi was drinking a lot recently, he was also afraid that there could happen worse to him. He just hoped that the drinking and clubbing nights were just a matter of time till it would disappear.
“Do you really think I am that stupid?” Satoshi huffed.
Sho sighed. Gosh, he wished that he wouldn’t have said something. “I am sorry, I am just worried.”
Satoshi’s eyes lightened up. He smiled a little bit at Sho. “Please don’t do that. I am really well aware of what I am doing. So please trust me.”
Sho nodded, but he wasn’t sure if he could really trust the other.
~~~
Masaki could hear the door open. He wanted to jump out of his bed and ask his brother out immediately, but he knew Kazu. When he’d make a wrong step, Kazu would punish him with staying silent, and Masaki had one big weak point: he was curious to death. When there was something he wanted to know, he’d do a lot of things to get what he wanted.
Masaki had his eyes closed. He waited till Kazu had taken his pyjama, till he had come back from the bathroom, and till he had lay down in his bed. Masaki shifted and turned to face Kazu’s bed. “And??”
Kazu shrieked. “Gosh, you are awake?” It was dark, but Masaki was sure that Kazu glanced at him.
“How can I sleep when you are on a date?” Masaki giggled. He slipped out of his bed, and pushed a grumbling Kazu to the side so that he was able to lie next to him. “And now tell me about it.”
Kazu snorted. “Can’t you stay in your bed? It’s pretty small in one bed together.” He robbed to the side.
“No way, I want to hear every single word you tell me,” Masaki grinned. He was probably more nervous about Kazu’s date then he’d be about his own, which he didn’t have, but that wasn’t important now.
“And you think you don’t hear me when you lie one meter away?” Kazu grumbled. Masaki poked his side, earning a nerved giggle from the other.
“Come one, tell me now,” Masaki whined.
“Okay, okay,” Kazu gave in. “I tell you about it. But only because you are such a nerve wrecking twin, really.”
Masaki put his hands behind his head and closed his eyes. “I am ready for your story.”
“It was nice, we went to a restaurant together and chatted a lot, story finished.” Masaki opened his eyes and turned to Kazu.
“No, no,” he said. “You don’t get away with such a short and not detailed description. I want to know who he is? Will you see each other again? Did you kiss?”
“Masaki,” Kazu growled. He rolled his eyes. “Is there a chance that you give up on asking me?”
“Nope.”
“Not even when I promise you to invite you out for dinner?” Kazu tried it again.
Masaki rolled on his stomach and placed his head between his hands. “No chance, little brother. I want to know everything.”
“You are only 1 minute older than I am, so no need to play the old and wise guy here.” Kazu poked Masaki’s nose.
Masaki laughed out. “Okay, okay.”
Kazu rolled on his back and rubbed his face. “Please don’t get mad, okay Masaki?”
Masaki blinked. Why should he get mad with his brother? “What have you done?”
Kazu didn’t say something at first. He just nibbled on his lip nervously staring at the ceiling. Masaki could feel the nervousness in him rising. “Kazu,” he said again.
“Okay,” Kazu faced him. “I met this guy at my work, and we get along well. We went on a few dates already, but I didn’t dare to tell someone about it.”
“Oh, that’s no problem, Kazu. It’s great that you’ve found someone you like. Why shall I be mad about it?” Masaki was confused, but he had the feeling that this wasn’t the only thing Kazu wanted to tell him.
“See, we like each other, but we aren’t in love. It’s more like meeting up for some stress relieve and go separate ways afterwards,” Kazu explained.
“What are you talking about?” Masaki asked.
“And you tell me that you are the older one?” Kazu laughed out. “It means that we meet to have sex with each other, and go separate ways afterwards. We are no couple, and there are no bigger feelings involved. We just share a nice time together.”
“But you both like what you do, right?” Masaki asked. It wasn’t what Masaki had thought of, but if his brother was happy with his life, than he was either.
“Yes, I guess so.” Kazu shrugged.
“Then I don’t see any problem.” Masaki nodded.
“Who are you and where’s my brother?” Kazu joked.
“Why?”
“Because you are the one dreaming about a real relationship with big feelings and happy bubble pink feelings involved.” Kazu made a break. “I thought you’d be mad with me.”
Masaki got Kazu’s thoughts. He couldn’t imagine a relationship like Kazu lived in right now, but that didn’t matter at all. “Kazu, as long as you both are happy with what you do, I am also happy. I just don’t want to see you suffering, okay?”
Masaki looked at his brother. Even though he had told him that he was happy how his love life was going on right now, he couldn’t get rid of the feeling that it wasn’t all the truth. “It’s really okay. I like him as friend. Maybe I’ll bring him along to my birthday party?” Kazu asked.
“Sure, I am curious,” Masaki said. And it wasn’t even a lie, he was really curious to get to know this stranger.
“One plea, Ma-chan,” Kazu said already half asleep. His voice was already getting calmer and his eyes were half closed. “Don’t tell Sho-kun or Satoshi about it. I guess they, or better one of them, don’t react so cool like you did.”
Masaki chuckled. No definitely not. But it would be funny to see Sho’s face when Kazu would tell him about his friends with benefits relationship. “No, I keep calm,” Masaki said while he climbed from Kazu’s bed back to his.
He wanted to sleep, but Masaki didn’t find any rest. He thought of his brother’s words. Yes, he was the relationship-type. He couldn’t think of an open relationship or just a sex relationship, but in the end he didn’t have to think about any kind of relationship, because there was no one interested in him.
“Shit,” Masaki cursed almost silently when he felt some tears in his eyes. This was definitely his weak point.
A/N: Hello everyone <3 Sooooo, Kazu is in a relationship, but only a friends with benefits thing? What's the reason for this? And what's going on with Satoshi? ^^ And Masaki seems pretty depressed, even though he covers it?
Tell me your thoughts.
