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sky_no_yukiTitle: Up where we belong
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
Masaki woke up when he heard a knock at his door. He turned and opened his eyes. “Jun?” He asked when he saw the slender figure at the doorframe. “Did you throw up? Are you feeling bad? Do you need something?”
“Too many questions,” Jun just said. His voice was weak and he sounded sad. Masaki sat up immediately. He didn’t like the tone in Jun’s voice. He knew it was party because Jun had been really drunk, but there was something else, something different in his voice…
“What happened?” Masaki could see Jun stepping into the room and he came up to Masaki’s place, sitting down there at the border of it.
“My friend … he … left me,” Jun’s voice broke.
Masaki tilted his head. “I am so sorry to hear that, Jun.” He touched Jun’s shoulder, but Jun evaded.
“No, please don’t,” he said.
Now Masaki got afraid. What did that mean? Why did Jun evade him? Jun turned to look at Masaki. “I think I am a bad person.”
“What?” Masaki asked. “Jun, no matter what you did, you aren’t a bad person.” Masaki touched Jun’s shoulder again, this time Jun didn’t move away. “Tell me.”
“I can’t …” Jun sobbed.
“Jun,” Masaki said harshly. “You can’t come into my room, crying here, making my heart almost stop, and then don’t say a word. So, tell me now.”
Jun blinked. “I am afraid that I ruin our friendship and the whole little world we five have created.”
“I promise you that this won’t happen, okay?” Masaki made a vow with his fingers.
Jun took a deep breath, and a second one, and a third one, before he finally turned to Masaki. “I broke up with my friend, because I feel something for someone else.”
Masaki started feeling nervous. Did he really want to know what Jun wanted to tell him here? “And the problem is?” Was Masaki’s voice shaking? He hoped he didn’t sound too nervous at all.
“The problem is that … the person … damn … it’s you,” Jun almost shouted the last words and his cheeks turned into deep red.
Masaki blinked. He needed some moments till he realized what that meant. “You? Me?”
Jun raised his hands. “I know, it’s ridiculous and it’s wrong.”
Masaki took Jun’s hands and held them in his. “Okay, I always thought same, but you know, it’s not. We aren’t related and there are just six years between us, it’s not wrong and it’s not weird.” Masaki would thank Kazu later on for his words. He had told him hundreds of times that Masaki wasn’t insane, and that it wasn’t wrong.
“You, you feel same?” Jun asked slowly.
Masaki smiled at Jun. He placed his hand around Jun’s neck and pulled him closer. He had decided to push all his worries away. He wouldn’t think about anything now. He placed his lips on Jun’s and waited for a reaction. Jun leaned into it, and soon they were lying on Masaki’s bed in a tight embrace, kissing each other from time to time, but mostly looking at each other while they smiled. Now Masaki knew what he had missed during the last year.
“And the best thing is, that I knew you better than anyone else,” Masaki laughed out. “I already have changed your diapers after all.”
“Oh come on, that’s not fair,” Jun whined but smiled at Masaki afterwards.
Now Masaki knew why he had never let someone close to him. He had known that there was someone else waiting for him, and he liked the thought that Jun had come to his life 19 years ago to be at his side forever – cheesy he knew it, but that’s how he had been.
“What are you thinking about?” Jun wanted to know. He had his hand intertwined with Masaki’s.
“We are a strange bunch of guys, really,” Masaki said. He looked at Jun and let his fingers wander over Jun’s cheek. “Strange but lovely.”
“And good looking,” Jun chuckled.
“Of course,” Masaki smiled and leaned forward to kiss the other again.
~~~
Sho looked at Kazu, who lay on his bed. He was already dozing off. He hated himself for telling Kazu about having a similar problem Masaki had. He didn’t know if Kazu had really listened to him, because in the end he hadn’t reacted to it.
“You stare at me,” Kazu said with his eyes closed.
Sho was sure that he blushed in this moment. “Sorry.”
Kazu sat up. He pulled his legs up and wrapped his hands around his legs. He placed his head on his knees. “What did you mean up there on the roof?”
“What?” Sho tried sounding like he had no idea what he was talking about.
“You talked about Masaki’s problems.” Kazu rolled his eyes. Okay, he couldn’t make Kazu think that he hadn’t said something.
“It’s not that important,” Sho smiled. “Really.”
Kazu snorted. “As if I believe this.” He stayed silent for a moment before he continued. “You are in love but you think it’s wrong?”
Sho breathed out. “It’s you, okay?”
“What?”
Sho turned to Kazu. “I always liked you. Already when you turned 18 I thought that I want you, but we are like brothers, we are family.”
For his surprise Kazu smiled. “We are family, yes. But we are no brothers, Sho. Not when we don’t want to be brothers. But we can still remain family. It’s like I told Masaki. There is nothing bad about feeling something for one of us – I mean excluding Satoshi and Masaki, because we are siblings … that would indeed be … strange.” Kazu grimaced. “But we others?”
Sho listened closely and he finally was able to agree to Kazu. He didn’t know why, but Kazu’s words made him think again about everything. He was right, they weren’t related and they were allowed to feel t he way they felt.
Sho stood up and walked to the bed where he sat next to Kazu. He let his hand brush over Kazu’s cheek before he bent forward to kiss him.
It felt right, even though he feared so much that it was wrong to do this. No, it wasn’t wrong. It felt overall good and right, it couldn’t be wrong.
“Finally,” Kazu smiled sheepishly and pulled Sho back with him on the bed.
~~~
Masaki had Jun’s hand in his when they walked down the garden. He could see Kazu and behind him Sho, his hands wrapped around Kazu’s waist. He smiled. This looked so perfect.
Satoshi stood next to Kazu. He smiled at Masaki and Jun. He definitely looked better again and when Masaki saw a girl smiling at Satoshi from not far away, Masaki knew that everything would be alright again.
“Have you brought everything here?” Masaki asked when they approached the others.
“I have the colour,” Satoshi held up a bag.
“And I brought the canvas,” Kazu pointed at the big item on the ground.
“Good, then let’s start this,” Masaki said with a smile.
They knelt down on the ground and spread the canvas there. Masaki took the green colour and spread it on his hands. He placed his hands on the canvas and left a wonderful handprint there. The others did same and soon they had a big picture with their handprints on it. “It’s our new vow.” Masaki looked from one to the other.
“19 years ago our journey started, and now our journey continues. We are still bond together, in a different way than back than, but we are still brothers, lovers, friends and more than that family,” Masaki said with a smile.
“Wise words, Masaki,” Kazu laughed. “But you are right.”
“I promise that everything will be alright again. I won’t give up, I promise this to you,” Satoshi said. He sounded honest and there was the will to change his current situation. Masaki was sure that Satoshi was on a good way to get back to a happy life.
He felt Jun’s hand on his, mixing the green with the purple colour. Jun had always had a special place in Masaki’s heart, but he had never thought that the brotherly feeling would change into something else.
He looked at Sho and Kazu looking at each other. He was so happy for them. He had wished for them being happy. “I never thought that my life would go this way, but I am overall happy that it leaded into this,” Sho said.
Masaki looked at Kazu and he knew that his twin had the same feelings Masaki had. In the end they always felt same, and mostly they even thought the same. And Satoshi, Satoshi was the older brother who was so different from them, but he also fit perfectly to them.
“So, here is the new vow: We stay together for the next 19 years, and then another 19 years, and another … and so on …,” Masaki said. “I want us to be together forever.”
The others nodded at him – Masaki knew this wasn’t just a vow, it was more than that. Even they had never had a normal family, they had always more of a family than most of other children had. And even though they had their ups and downs, they always were happy in their hearts as long as they had each other, and it would remain like this, Masaki was sure about it.
A/N: We are done .... it's over, the last chapter is up now, and I have to leave this babies^^^ It's sad, but it's okay, there will come something new.
Oh, btw, I have an advent calendar challenge, where you can request drabbles if you are interested. I would love to see you there <3 You find everything here: ADVENT CALENDAR CHALLENGE
I hope you liked the end of the story, I know it's almost too cheesy *lol* But it turned out to be like this ^^
Thanks everyone for reading and I hope to see you in the next story, which will most probably be an Aimiya story :D
Love you all <3 Yuki
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
Masaki woke up when he heard a knock at his door. He turned and opened his eyes. “Jun?” He asked when he saw the slender figure at the doorframe. “Did you throw up? Are you feeling bad? Do you need something?”
“Too many questions,” Jun just said. His voice was weak and he sounded sad. Masaki sat up immediately. He didn’t like the tone in Jun’s voice. He knew it was party because Jun had been really drunk, but there was something else, something different in his voice…
“What happened?” Masaki could see Jun stepping into the room and he came up to Masaki’s place, sitting down there at the border of it.
“My friend … he … left me,” Jun’s voice broke.
Masaki tilted his head. “I am so sorry to hear that, Jun.” He touched Jun’s shoulder, but Jun evaded.
“No, please don’t,” he said.
Now Masaki got afraid. What did that mean? Why did Jun evade him? Jun turned to look at Masaki. “I think I am a bad person.”
“What?” Masaki asked. “Jun, no matter what you did, you aren’t a bad person.” Masaki touched Jun’s shoulder again, this time Jun didn’t move away. “Tell me.”
“I can’t …” Jun sobbed.
“Jun,” Masaki said harshly. “You can’t come into my room, crying here, making my heart almost stop, and then don’t say a word. So, tell me now.”
Jun blinked. “I am afraid that I ruin our friendship and the whole little world we five have created.”
“I promise you that this won’t happen, okay?” Masaki made a vow with his fingers.
Jun took a deep breath, and a second one, and a third one, before he finally turned to Masaki. “I broke up with my friend, because I feel something for someone else.”
Masaki started feeling nervous. Did he really want to know what Jun wanted to tell him here? “And the problem is?” Was Masaki’s voice shaking? He hoped he didn’t sound too nervous at all.
“The problem is that … the person … damn … it’s you,” Jun almost shouted the last words and his cheeks turned into deep red.
Masaki blinked. He needed some moments till he realized what that meant. “You? Me?”
Jun raised his hands. “I know, it’s ridiculous and it’s wrong.”
Masaki took Jun’s hands and held them in his. “Okay, I always thought same, but you know, it’s not. We aren’t related and there are just six years between us, it’s not wrong and it’s not weird.” Masaki would thank Kazu later on for his words. He had told him hundreds of times that Masaki wasn’t insane, and that it wasn’t wrong.
“You, you feel same?” Jun asked slowly.
Masaki smiled at Jun. He placed his hand around Jun’s neck and pulled him closer. He had decided to push all his worries away. He wouldn’t think about anything now. He placed his lips on Jun’s and waited for a reaction. Jun leaned into it, and soon they were lying on Masaki’s bed in a tight embrace, kissing each other from time to time, but mostly looking at each other while they smiled. Now Masaki knew what he had missed during the last year.
“And the best thing is, that I knew you better than anyone else,” Masaki laughed out. “I already have changed your diapers after all.”
“Oh come on, that’s not fair,” Jun whined but smiled at Masaki afterwards.
Now Masaki knew why he had never let someone close to him. He had known that there was someone else waiting for him, and he liked the thought that Jun had come to his life 19 years ago to be at his side forever – cheesy he knew it, but that’s how he had been.
“What are you thinking about?” Jun wanted to know. He had his hand intertwined with Masaki’s.
“We are a strange bunch of guys, really,” Masaki said. He looked at Jun and let his fingers wander over Jun’s cheek. “Strange but lovely.”
“And good looking,” Jun chuckled.
“Of course,” Masaki smiled and leaned forward to kiss the other again.
~~~
Sho looked at Kazu, who lay on his bed. He was already dozing off. He hated himself for telling Kazu about having a similar problem Masaki had. He didn’t know if Kazu had really listened to him, because in the end he hadn’t reacted to it.
“You stare at me,” Kazu said with his eyes closed.
Sho was sure that he blushed in this moment. “Sorry.”
Kazu sat up. He pulled his legs up and wrapped his hands around his legs. He placed his head on his knees. “What did you mean up there on the roof?”
“What?” Sho tried sounding like he had no idea what he was talking about.
“You talked about Masaki’s problems.” Kazu rolled his eyes. Okay, he couldn’t make Kazu think that he hadn’t said something.
“It’s not that important,” Sho smiled. “Really.”
Kazu snorted. “As if I believe this.” He stayed silent for a moment before he continued. “You are in love but you think it’s wrong?”
Sho breathed out. “It’s you, okay?”
“What?”
Sho turned to Kazu. “I always liked you. Already when you turned 18 I thought that I want you, but we are like brothers, we are family.”
For his surprise Kazu smiled. “We are family, yes. But we are no brothers, Sho. Not when we don’t want to be brothers. But we can still remain family. It’s like I told Masaki. There is nothing bad about feeling something for one of us – I mean excluding Satoshi and Masaki, because we are siblings … that would indeed be … strange.” Kazu grimaced. “But we others?”
Sho listened closely and he finally was able to agree to Kazu. He didn’t know why, but Kazu’s words made him think again about everything. He was right, they weren’t related and they were allowed to feel t he way they felt.
Sho stood up and walked to the bed where he sat next to Kazu. He let his hand brush over Kazu’s cheek before he bent forward to kiss him.
It felt right, even though he feared so much that it was wrong to do this. No, it wasn’t wrong. It felt overall good and right, it couldn’t be wrong.
“Finally,” Kazu smiled sheepishly and pulled Sho back with him on the bed.
~~~
Masaki had Jun’s hand in his when they walked down the garden. He could see Kazu and behind him Sho, his hands wrapped around Kazu’s waist. He smiled. This looked so perfect.
Satoshi stood next to Kazu. He smiled at Masaki and Jun. He definitely looked better again and when Masaki saw a girl smiling at Satoshi from not far away, Masaki knew that everything would be alright again.
“Have you brought everything here?” Masaki asked when they approached the others.
“I have the colour,” Satoshi held up a bag.
“And I brought the canvas,” Kazu pointed at the big item on the ground.
“Good, then let’s start this,” Masaki said with a smile.
They knelt down on the ground and spread the canvas there. Masaki took the green colour and spread it on his hands. He placed his hands on the canvas and left a wonderful handprint there. The others did same and soon they had a big picture with their handprints on it. “It’s our new vow.” Masaki looked from one to the other.
“19 years ago our journey started, and now our journey continues. We are still bond together, in a different way than back than, but we are still brothers, lovers, friends and more than that family,” Masaki said with a smile.
“Wise words, Masaki,” Kazu laughed. “But you are right.”
“I promise that everything will be alright again. I won’t give up, I promise this to you,” Satoshi said. He sounded honest and there was the will to change his current situation. Masaki was sure that Satoshi was on a good way to get back to a happy life.
He felt Jun’s hand on his, mixing the green with the purple colour. Jun had always had a special place in Masaki’s heart, but he had never thought that the brotherly feeling would change into something else.
He looked at Sho and Kazu looking at each other. He was so happy for them. He had wished for them being happy. “I never thought that my life would go this way, but I am overall happy that it leaded into this,” Sho said.
Masaki looked at Kazu and he knew that his twin had the same feelings Masaki had. In the end they always felt same, and mostly they even thought the same. And Satoshi, Satoshi was the older brother who was so different from them, but he also fit perfectly to them.
“So, here is the new vow: We stay together for the next 19 years, and then another 19 years, and another … and so on …,” Masaki said. “I want us to be together forever.”
The others nodded at him – Masaki knew this wasn’t just a vow, it was more than that. Even they had never had a normal family, they had always more of a family than most of other children had. And even though they had their ups and downs, they always were happy in their hearts as long as they had each other, and it would remain like this, Masaki was sure about it.
A/N: We are done .... it's over, the last chapter is up now, and I have to leave this babies^^^ It's sad, but it's okay, there will come something new.
Oh, btw, I have an advent calendar challenge, where you can request drabbles if you are interested. I would love to see you there <3 You find everything here: ADVENT CALENDAR CHALLENGE
I hope you liked the end of the story, I know it's almost too cheesy *lol* But it turned out to be like this ^^
Thanks everyone for reading and I hope to see you in the next story, which will most probably be an Aimiya story :D
Love you all <3 Yuki
