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sky_no_yuki2017-10-13 03:49 pm
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Up where we belong 16/18 (JunBa, Sakumiya)
Title: Up where we belong
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
“And that’s it,” Masaki said when he placed the last box on the ground. He could here Kazu panting behind him.
“Can you help me with our bags, please?” He breathed out deeply. Masaki ran downstairs to help his brother with two big bags. “Gosh, what do you have in there? Stones?”
Masaki smiled at him. “No, just clothes.”
“You know that you are crazy? How can someone buy that much clothes?” Kazu grumbled. Masaki looked at him. His brother really didn’t spend much money on clothes, and sometimes it made Masaki annoyed, because he couldn’t understand how someone could be that parsimonious. But he wouldn’t start a fight now. It was their first day in their new apartment, and no one would make his good mood turn into a bad one.
They stepped into the apartment. “We finally have our first own home.” Masaki was delighted. It took them one year to find an apartment which was affordable for them. Masaki was still in the middle of his education in the kindergarten, and Kazu had finished his’ two months ago and the gaming company had decided to keep him employed.
“Hey, hey.” The door on the other side opened and Sho looked out at them.
“Finally you have all your stuff here,” Sho said with a smile. “I am sorry that I wasn’t able to help you moving, but I had to work all day long.” It was strange to live next to Sho and Satoshi again, and Masaki couldn’t tell what exactly it was, but he was sad. Maybe he missed Jun already, who had moved into the student orphanage some weeks ago.
“Hey,” Satoshi came up the stairs. “You finally moved.”
Masaki looked at his brother. Satoshi didn’t look all over good. He looked tired and his face was pale. He looked at Sho, who shrugged. What was going on here? He had never seen Satoshi like this, or maybe Satoshi had been like this for a longer time and he just hid it when they met up all together?
“We go and unpack everything now.” Kazu breathed out. “I mean when I am able to breathe again.”
Masaki smiled. “You are really something.”
Kazu rolled his eyes. “I carried up all the stuff, I am tired.” It was a good decision to move here, Masaki felt good, and he was sure that the others were happy to be around each other again.
“Jun will come by later on, he is at university till afternoon, but maybe we can cook something together afterwards?” Masaki asked the others.
“I am not at home, I need to do things for the next exhibition,” Satoshi said.
“But the exhibition is in one month.” Masaki’s feeling about something being wrong grew bigger.
“I don’t have time, okay?” Satoshi grunted.
Masaki raised his hands. “It’s okay. I don’t force anyone into anything. If you don’t have time, it’s okay.”
Masaki could see Sho glancing at Satoshi, but the other just nodded and turned to walk into their apartment.
“What the hell is wrong with him?” Kazu whispered.
Sho shook his head. “I seriously have no idea.”
Now Masaki started getting worried. He was sure that Sho had already a guess that there was something off, but it seemed that Satoshi wasn’t even talking with Sho, it had to be something really bad.
“But you are free?” Masaki asked Sho.
Sho was still looking into the apartment where Satoshi had disappeared. “Yes, I am free. I am just off to work now, but I’ll be back in time.”
“Good, I will prepare some food,” Masaki smiled. At least the others weren’t acting strange.
~~~
Masaki had the chilli on the oven and the muffins were almost done baking. He loved the smell of fresh chocolate-mint muffins.
“Oh my god, I am already so hungry,” Kazu said. They had worked the whole day to make the empty apartment to something cosy and comfortable. Masaki was happy that Kazu let him plan everything for the apartment, because otherwise it would have been a table, a couch and a TV. Nothing more, nothing less.
Masaki had placed the picture with their vow on the wall and some pictures from all of them covered the walls in the whole apartment. In two rooms he had placed Satoshi’s art.
Masaki’s bedroom was filled with photos and memories from the orphanage, his friends and some pictures from his children now in the kindergarten, while Kazu’s room was … white .. .with a bed inside.
“Jun is on the way, and Sho is already at home, he just takes a shower. We’ll eat soon,” Masaki said. He knew he sounded mommy like, but he didn’t care about it.
“Masaki, I am really worried about Satoshi,” Kazu said out of the blue.
Masaki looked up. Yes, he definitely felt same. “I hope he is okay. I don’t know him like this.”
“I wonder what’s going wrong with him. It’s not the Satoshi we know.” Kazu looked at the oven absent-minded. “Do you think it has something to do with Maya?”
Satoshi’s last relationship had last two years till Maya ended it from one day to the other. They were all shocked, because Satoshi had already spoken about an own family and moving in together.
After that break up Satoshi had started being more closed, and now he seemed into other troubles. “I just hope he doesn’t start the crap from a few years ago again.” Masaki said.
“You mean the alcohol?” Kazu asked. His voice sounded worried.
Right after Sho and Satoshi had moved in their apartment and Satoshi had his exhibition, he had slipped into something no good. He had met the wrong people and soon he was stuck in a vicious circle. Luckily it didn’t take them long to get Satoshi out of it, but every time he experienced something bad, the others feared that he’d fall back in old patterns and start with drinking again. “Yes. But I believe in him, and I hope it’s just a matter of bad mood and nothing worse.”
“I hope you’re right,” Kazu said. “But …” he started, but Masaki stopped him, when he heard a noise at the door.
“Jun?” He asked.
“Hey,” Jun’s voice resounded from the door. Masaki didn’t want that the other got pulled in their worries. Jun was already 20, but nevertheless he was still the youngest among them. He came to the kitchen and for one moment Masaki’s heart jumped. What the hell was this? He had never felt his stomach moving when Jun entered the room.
He became a serious good looking young man during the last years. He had his black hair a little longer and big glasses covered his eyes. He had a long sleeved pullover and tight jeans, and he just looked good. Masaki shook his head. He had to smile about his own thoughts. This was ridiculous.
“Wow, your apartment is amazing,” Jun said. “And you are able to see the Sky tree from here.”
“Yes, we were lucky to get this apartment,” Masaki said.
“How’s university going?” Kazu asked.
Jun shrugged. “Good I guess. I have two exams next week.”
“Dancing exams?” Masaki asked. He was so happy that Jun had gone his way and he was still so chipper about his dancing skills and his chance to dance in big theatres since he had entered university. He had been one of the best students in his year.
“Yes, one dancing exam and one exam about dancing history,” Jun explained.
“That sounds … interesting,” Kazu said. No, it was definitely not interesting, at least not for Kazu or Masaki.
“But when you’re done with your exams we can make a short trip to the sea, what do you think about?” Masaki asked.
He could see Jun blushing. “You know … actually …. I already planned something.” He seemed nervous. “I got to know someone … and we meet regularly … I guess we are kind of together.”
“Ohhhh that’s so nice,” Kazu chirped. “Who is she? And if you need some sex tips, don’t ask Masaki, he is too prude to talk about it.” Kazu winked.
Something in Masaki clenched. Jun had a relationship? He should be happy about it, but there was a kind of sadness spreading in him, maybe also because he hadn’t had one single relationship until now. “You’re stupid, Kazu,” Masaki tried sounding happy.
Jun was still nervous. He nibbled on his lower lip and he looked from Kazu to Masaki and back. “Ah, she is actually a he … and he is in my dancing class.”
Kazu pulled Jun along till they sat at the table. Kazu seemed all chipper about it, and he was already about to ask Jun hundreds of questions, when Sho entered the room. Masaki didn’t know why, but suddenly Kazu was silent and didn’t ask anything anymore.
“What are you talking about?” Sho wanted to know.
“Jun meets someone, and Kazu asking him all the embarrassing questions,” Masaki explained dryly. He was glad that Sho interrupted them, because he didn’t want to hear about Jun’s new found love. Masaki tried ignoring the feeling in him. Jun was like his little brother, he had raised him up, so what was this about now? It was totally not good what happened in his belly and heart.
“I prepare the food for you, sit down,” Masaki said and walked up to the kitchen. He took a glass and drank some water. He needed to calm down, otherwise this would go a totally wrong way.
~~~
Sho looked at Jun, who was still slightly blushing. He had stopped wondering about certain behaviours of his friends, because they had always been kind of special, but Masaki’s sparkle in his eyes and Kazu’s way of closing up when Sho entered the room was new to him, and he didn’t like it.
“So, who is it?” Sho asked after dinner.
“Who is who?” Jun asked. “Oh,” he said after a short pause. Sho and Jun stood on the balcony, looking at the sun disappearing behind the horizon. “It’s someone from my dance class. He is nice, really. Maybe I can bring him along one day?”
“Sure,” Sho said with a smile. “I don’t see a problem with doing that.”
Jun sighed. Something was burdening him. “But I guess Masaki has a problem with it.”
Sho turned to look at Masaki and Kazu inside. They seemed to argue about something, but they had the door closed and Sho couldn’t hear what their talk was about. “Why do you think this? You know what you mean to Masaki.”
Jun shook his head. “It’s just a feeling. He didn’t say anything, but his body language changed so drastically when I told them about my friend.”
Sho placed his hand on Jun’s shoulder. “Don’t be stupid. It’s Masaki after all.”
Jun nodded. “Maybe you are right.”
Sho had a question he wanted to ask since forever, but he had never found the courage to do so. “Do you know something about Kazu and Ryo?” He finally asked.
Jun looked at him. He seemed surprised. “He didn’t tell you?”
Sho shook his head, his heart beat increasing. “No.”
“They broke up some time ago. After they had ended their bed-thing and started dating for real they had found out that it didn’t work for both of them,” Jun explained. “But I guess that’s okay. They both wanted it that way.”
Sho’s belly made some jumps. He wondered why Kazu didn’t tell him about his break up? Was he really that far away from his friends that they didn’t speak about their problems with him anymore?
He saw Kazu standing in the living room waving his hands wildly. They were definitely discussing something. The door to the balcony opened and Kazu looked at them. “Jun, I have something to show to you, would you come with me?”
Jun looked at Sho, who shrugged. “Okay,” Jun said carefully. He was insecure what this all was about, but he followed Kazu out of the apartment.
Sho stepped into the apartment, finding Masaki on the couch, the pillow between his hands, his head on the pillow. “What happened?”
Masaki looked up. “I don’t know. We started discussing about some things, and one thing lead to the other. And now he is mad with me, and I am mad with him.”
Sho laughed. “That’s so you.” He sat next to Masaki. “You always fight and finally you see that you are equal stupid – you are twins after all.”
Masaki smiled. “I hope you are right.”
“What did you fight about?” Sho wanted to know. He looked at Masaki’s face, and he didn’t need the other’s words to know that Masaki wouldn’t speak about it.
“I promised not to tell anyone, not even you.” Masaki shrugged. Sho knew that Masaki always held his words. If he said that he’d keep quiet about something, he’d do this no matter what happened.
“It’s okay. But tell me, are you okay?” Sho asked.
Masaki nodded slowly – too slow. “No, Masaki, you aren’t okay.”
Masaki nibbled on his lips and tears in his eyes overwhelmed him.
A/N: Hello everyone, so here is a new update <3 Sooooo, Masaki experiences feelings for our Jun-baby? And Sho knows about the break up? I know there is a time jump again, but I needed it now <3 And what was that fight about? And Satoshi
? =)
Pairing: For the beginning Arashi friendhip, later on: JunBa, Sakumiya, Ohno/??
Rating: up to R
Warning: None
Summary: To grow up in an orphanage can be really depressing. You miss your family, or you wonder about your family. Why are you here? Where is your mother? Your father? Everything starts getting easier when you have friends who are your family - like in Masaki's, Sho's, Kazu's and Satoshi's case. And when a baby arrives in the orphanage, Masaki has big-brother-like feelings from the very first beginning.
“And that’s it,” Masaki said when he placed the last box on the ground. He could here Kazu panting behind him.
“Can you help me with our bags, please?” He breathed out deeply. Masaki ran downstairs to help his brother with two big bags. “Gosh, what do you have in there? Stones?”
Masaki smiled at him. “No, just clothes.”
“You know that you are crazy? How can someone buy that much clothes?” Kazu grumbled. Masaki looked at him. His brother really didn’t spend much money on clothes, and sometimes it made Masaki annoyed, because he couldn’t understand how someone could be that parsimonious. But he wouldn’t start a fight now. It was their first day in their new apartment, and no one would make his good mood turn into a bad one.
They stepped into the apartment. “We finally have our first own home.” Masaki was delighted. It took them one year to find an apartment which was affordable for them. Masaki was still in the middle of his education in the kindergarten, and Kazu had finished his’ two months ago and the gaming company had decided to keep him employed.
“Hey, hey.” The door on the other side opened and Sho looked out at them.
“Finally you have all your stuff here,” Sho said with a smile. “I am sorry that I wasn’t able to help you moving, but I had to work all day long.” It was strange to live next to Sho and Satoshi again, and Masaki couldn’t tell what exactly it was, but he was sad. Maybe he missed Jun already, who had moved into the student orphanage some weeks ago.
“Hey,” Satoshi came up the stairs. “You finally moved.”
Masaki looked at his brother. Satoshi didn’t look all over good. He looked tired and his face was pale. He looked at Sho, who shrugged. What was going on here? He had never seen Satoshi like this, or maybe Satoshi had been like this for a longer time and he just hid it when they met up all together?
“We go and unpack everything now.” Kazu breathed out. “I mean when I am able to breathe again.”
Masaki smiled. “You are really something.”
Kazu rolled his eyes. “I carried up all the stuff, I am tired.” It was a good decision to move here, Masaki felt good, and he was sure that the others were happy to be around each other again.
“Jun will come by later on, he is at university till afternoon, but maybe we can cook something together afterwards?” Masaki asked the others.
“I am not at home, I need to do things for the next exhibition,” Satoshi said.
“But the exhibition is in one month.” Masaki’s feeling about something being wrong grew bigger.
“I don’t have time, okay?” Satoshi grunted.
Masaki raised his hands. “It’s okay. I don’t force anyone into anything. If you don’t have time, it’s okay.”
Masaki could see Sho glancing at Satoshi, but the other just nodded and turned to walk into their apartment.
“What the hell is wrong with him?” Kazu whispered.
Sho shook his head. “I seriously have no idea.”
Now Masaki started getting worried. He was sure that Sho had already a guess that there was something off, but it seemed that Satoshi wasn’t even talking with Sho, it had to be something really bad.
“But you are free?” Masaki asked Sho.
Sho was still looking into the apartment where Satoshi had disappeared. “Yes, I am free. I am just off to work now, but I’ll be back in time.”
“Good, I will prepare some food,” Masaki smiled. At least the others weren’t acting strange.
~~~
Masaki had the chilli on the oven and the muffins were almost done baking. He loved the smell of fresh chocolate-mint muffins.
“Oh my god, I am already so hungry,” Kazu said. They had worked the whole day to make the empty apartment to something cosy and comfortable. Masaki was happy that Kazu let him plan everything for the apartment, because otherwise it would have been a table, a couch and a TV. Nothing more, nothing less.
Masaki had placed the picture with their vow on the wall and some pictures from all of them covered the walls in the whole apartment. In two rooms he had placed Satoshi’s art.
Masaki’s bedroom was filled with photos and memories from the orphanage, his friends and some pictures from his children now in the kindergarten, while Kazu’s room was … white .. .with a bed inside.
“Jun is on the way, and Sho is already at home, he just takes a shower. We’ll eat soon,” Masaki said. He knew he sounded mommy like, but he didn’t care about it.
“Masaki, I am really worried about Satoshi,” Kazu said out of the blue.
Masaki looked up. Yes, he definitely felt same. “I hope he is okay. I don’t know him like this.”
“I wonder what’s going wrong with him. It’s not the Satoshi we know.” Kazu looked at the oven absent-minded. “Do you think it has something to do with Maya?”
Satoshi’s last relationship had last two years till Maya ended it from one day to the other. They were all shocked, because Satoshi had already spoken about an own family and moving in together.
After that break up Satoshi had started being more closed, and now he seemed into other troubles. “I just hope he doesn’t start the crap from a few years ago again.” Masaki said.
“You mean the alcohol?” Kazu asked. His voice sounded worried.
Right after Sho and Satoshi had moved in their apartment and Satoshi had his exhibition, he had slipped into something no good. He had met the wrong people and soon he was stuck in a vicious circle. Luckily it didn’t take them long to get Satoshi out of it, but every time he experienced something bad, the others feared that he’d fall back in old patterns and start with drinking again. “Yes. But I believe in him, and I hope it’s just a matter of bad mood and nothing worse.”
“I hope you’re right,” Kazu said. “But …” he started, but Masaki stopped him, when he heard a noise at the door.
“Jun?” He asked.
“Hey,” Jun’s voice resounded from the door. Masaki didn’t want that the other got pulled in their worries. Jun was already 20, but nevertheless he was still the youngest among them. He came to the kitchen and for one moment Masaki’s heart jumped. What the hell was this? He had never felt his stomach moving when Jun entered the room.
He became a serious good looking young man during the last years. He had his black hair a little longer and big glasses covered his eyes. He had a long sleeved pullover and tight jeans, and he just looked good. Masaki shook his head. He had to smile about his own thoughts. This was ridiculous.
“Wow, your apartment is amazing,” Jun said. “And you are able to see the Sky tree from here.”
“Yes, we were lucky to get this apartment,” Masaki said.
“How’s university going?” Kazu asked.
Jun shrugged. “Good I guess. I have two exams next week.”
“Dancing exams?” Masaki asked. He was so happy that Jun had gone his way and he was still so chipper about his dancing skills and his chance to dance in big theatres since he had entered university. He had been one of the best students in his year.
“Yes, one dancing exam and one exam about dancing history,” Jun explained.
“That sounds … interesting,” Kazu said. No, it was definitely not interesting, at least not for Kazu or Masaki.
“But when you’re done with your exams we can make a short trip to the sea, what do you think about?” Masaki asked.
He could see Jun blushing. “You know … actually …. I already planned something.” He seemed nervous. “I got to know someone … and we meet regularly … I guess we are kind of together.”
“Ohhhh that’s so nice,” Kazu chirped. “Who is she? And if you need some sex tips, don’t ask Masaki, he is too prude to talk about it.” Kazu winked.
Something in Masaki clenched. Jun had a relationship? He should be happy about it, but there was a kind of sadness spreading in him, maybe also because he hadn’t had one single relationship until now. “You’re stupid, Kazu,” Masaki tried sounding happy.
Jun was still nervous. He nibbled on his lower lip and he looked from Kazu to Masaki and back. “Ah, she is actually a he … and he is in my dancing class.”
Kazu pulled Jun along till they sat at the table. Kazu seemed all chipper about it, and he was already about to ask Jun hundreds of questions, when Sho entered the room. Masaki didn’t know why, but suddenly Kazu was silent and didn’t ask anything anymore.
“What are you talking about?” Sho wanted to know.
“Jun meets someone, and Kazu asking him all the embarrassing questions,” Masaki explained dryly. He was glad that Sho interrupted them, because he didn’t want to hear about Jun’s new found love. Masaki tried ignoring the feeling in him. Jun was like his little brother, he had raised him up, so what was this about now? It was totally not good what happened in his belly and heart.
“I prepare the food for you, sit down,” Masaki said and walked up to the kitchen. He took a glass and drank some water. He needed to calm down, otherwise this would go a totally wrong way.
~~~
Sho looked at Jun, who was still slightly blushing. He had stopped wondering about certain behaviours of his friends, because they had always been kind of special, but Masaki’s sparkle in his eyes and Kazu’s way of closing up when Sho entered the room was new to him, and he didn’t like it.
“So, who is it?” Sho asked after dinner.
“Who is who?” Jun asked. “Oh,” he said after a short pause. Sho and Jun stood on the balcony, looking at the sun disappearing behind the horizon. “It’s someone from my dance class. He is nice, really. Maybe I can bring him along one day?”
“Sure,” Sho said with a smile. “I don’t see a problem with doing that.”
Jun sighed. Something was burdening him. “But I guess Masaki has a problem with it.”
Sho turned to look at Masaki and Kazu inside. They seemed to argue about something, but they had the door closed and Sho couldn’t hear what their talk was about. “Why do you think this? You know what you mean to Masaki.”
Jun shook his head. “It’s just a feeling. He didn’t say anything, but his body language changed so drastically when I told them about my friend.”
Sho placed his hand on Jun’s shoulder. “Don’t be stupid. It’s Masaki after all.”
Jun nodded. “Maybe you are right.”
Sho had a question he wanted to ask since forever, but he had never found the courage to do so. “Do you know something about Kazu and Ryo?” He finally asked.
Jun looked at him. He seemed surprised. “He didn’t tell you?”
Sho shook his head, his heart beat increasing. “No.”
“They broke up some time ago. After they had ended their bed-thing and started dating for real they had found out that it didn’t work for both of them,” Jun explained. “But I guess that’s okay. They both wanted it that way.”
Sho’s belly made some jumps. He wondered why Kazu didn’t tell him about his break up? Was he really that far away from his friends that they didn’t speak about their problems with him anymore?
He saw Kazu standing in the living room waving his hands wildly. They were definitely discussing something. The door to the balcony opened and Kazu looked at them. “Jun, I have something to show to you, would you come with me?”
Jun looked at Sho, who shrugged. “Okay,” Jun said carefully. He was insecure what this all was about, but he followed Kazu out of the apartment.
Sho stepped into the apartment, finding Masaki on the couch, the pillow between his hands, his head on the pillow. “What happened?”
Masaki looked up. “I don’t know. We started discussing about some things, and one thing lead to the other. And now he is mad with me, and I am mad with him.”
Sho laughed. “That’s so you.” He sat next to Masaki. “You always fight and finally you see that you are equal stupid – you are twins after all.”
Masaki smiled. “I hope you are right.”
“What did you fight about?” Sho wanted to know. He looked at Masaki’s face, and he didn’t need the other’s words to know that Masaki wouldn’t speak about it.
“I promised not to tell anyone, not even you.” Masaki shrugged. Sho knew that Masaki always held his words. If he said that he’d keep quiet about something, he’d do this no matter what happened.
“It’s okay. But tell me, are you okay?” Sho asked.
Masaki nodded slowly – too slow. “No, Masaki, you aren’t okay.”
Masaki nibbled on his lips and tears in his eyes overwhelmed him.
A/N: Hello everyone, so here is a new update <3 Sooooo, Masaki experiences feelings for our Jun-baby? And Sho knows about the break up? I know there is a time jump again, but I needed it now <3 And what was that fight about? And Satoshi
? =)
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I wonder how Sho's feeling about Kazu now, is he hurt because Kazu avoiding him? Or he is mad? Or he just simply...confuse and doesn't have any idea about what's going on
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I think he is confused ^^ But let's see.
Thanks so much for reading and commenting, dear <3
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I love that Jun is all grown-up too now and even in college <3
Thanks for this update!
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Nino and Sho are .... stupid *lol*
Thanks so much for reading and commenting, dear <3
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I can see how Masaki might be confused by his feelings for someone he has known since he was a baby.
I really want to knock Saho and Nino's heads together and I am desperately worried about Satoshi.
So many problems to sort out...
I can't wait for the next chapter 💜💚
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Oh, those two stupid, yes....*lol* Satoshi isn't feeling well :(
Thanks so much for reading and commenting, dear <3
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i am really worried about him.
and no it is not ridiculous, aiba!
i totally feel you, that you feel like that about jun. XD
i just hope, that he will tell sho about it and than sho finally admits his feelings for nino. >.<
somehow they are all dramaqueens. XDD
I just hope that, all their drama will end well. ^^
see you in the next one. xo
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xD They are really dramaqueens, all of them, that's true :D :D
Thanks so much for reading and commenting, dear <3